Nihilist

Listening to the sound track of Kieslowsk’s film “Red” , the Music makes me feel quite and vacant (空靈的). I like this kind of feeling.

Today is the end of three days holiday. I had nothing to do except written several articles for my job. I don’t want to do that at home, but I don’t think I will have enough time to finish that in the coming week, indeed.

I also wasn’t learning English in the past two days. I am feeling guilty about it.
Feeling tired and tired , and it made me couldn’t do everything.
I can’t believe I have to go back to work tomorrow. So fast it passed.

Cai Yuanpei once said “ The value of life is measured by the career and not by a long life “ (人生的價值，在於事業不在於生命的長久)

But Sartre once said: “ As a person, everyone has the same value.”（對人而言，任何事物都有它的價值）

I believe Sartre’s saying. So I believe everyone has his/her value. Once you want to do something, just to do that without any doubt. Is it right? ( I think Harrison would ask me what’s that? I really hard to say what is it? It is clear that everyone has his/her idea. I don’t need to say it clearly)

Actually, I belong to that kind of person –nihilist.

My room is full of “Red”. I am thinking of the story. The actress’s eyes, the red color, the life, the fate, the chance, and the old woman who occurred in the series of “three colors”.

If you have been seen Kieslowsk’s film, you would know what I mentioned. And Also would know Why I mentioned Sartre and nihilism.

Kieslowsk’s was a nihilist

Follow my heart

Once I think everyone only has one time being here, I strongly want to have some changes for my life. I don’t just speak, speak and then do nothing. So, I will remember what I feel and what I want. I am those people who follow up their heart.

One single slip brings eternal regret, and looking back, you find that your whole life has passed away. (一失足成千古恨，回頭已是百年身)

I don’t want regret for my life. I must to do something that is meaningful to me and worth to do.

What things you would do until you die?

Sorry, friends, I am so busy these days, therefore, I haven’t updated here for a long time. Have nothing special things happened to me also. I just feel tire, tire and tire. I tired like a dead dog. Nothing to think, nothing to consider, even nothing to dream. Oh, so terrible this situation. I hope that it could be done apace.

I always think of it – we should put career in the first place in life or just should put dream in the first place in life. On Japanese man had said-For human being, the best career to undertake is to do what lasts eternally, which is also what life requires human beings as a whole. 人,最理想的的是做你最能持之以恆的事業，這亦是生命對人類的要求。

What things you would do until you die? My answers are ( I hope so)—writing(Chinese and English), shooting film, taking picture, no more at this moment. You know I always change my mind.

Everyone is responsible for his job

Today, I will have lots of things to be done. We are doing so much preparation for tomorrow event. I hope it will be done smoothly.

These days are busy to do something for myself. I couldn’t off work on time everyday, because something always out of control.
I am expecting my long vocation. But where they are ? Who knows.
A Chinese saying says: Everyone is responsible for his country. (天下興亡,匹夫有責).
I would like to change it to: Everyone is responsible for his job. (工作好壞，自負盈虧)．

Haha….Do you agree ?

PS: by the way , I am reading a book named English-Chinese and Chinese-English Translation: Practice and Research. written by Lin Wei. This is a really nice book.
If you are interesting in translation, you should buy one. I bought it in China , just coasted 50 yuan, is it very cheap? I agree.

2006.10.19 morning

Struggle is life

The important day to our university is coming in two days. My colleagues are crazing for it. Everything changes at any moment. How to prepare perfectly? It is a big knowledge.

In the past, I was in charge of several events for film. The preparation job were so difficulty and trouble. You had to consider anything. In other words, you not only have a clear brain and also good organizing , management as well as strength.

Some people are grouped to do something is a good feeling, something like film worker doing for a film. I like this kind of job. It is very exciting, but also very hard.

Today let me to use a sentence to encourage our lovely colleagues:

Struggle is life, and life is only advancement. –Ba Jin

2006.10.18 早

Money, I have none; my life ,at your disposal

The section 2 of translation course has been changed to another teacher. I learned several interesting sentences from him. Here they are:
Money, I have none; my life ,at your disposal. 錢，我沒有，命就一條！
My good luck attend you. 好運與你同在
Long live the People's Republic of China中華人民共和國萬歲
The child as he was, Jane was more then a match for him. 這小孩盡管頑皮，但壓根不是珍的對手
Not a finger did I lay on him.從沒有指責過他

The teacher spoke and changed the screen of powerpoint very fast so that I couldn’t write down all of the notes. When I get the full notes from him, I will introduce the others to you.

A letter for Harrison’s Mammy

Dear Harrison’s Mammy,

How do you do ? Even we don’t know each other and ever met before, but I know your information from your son ,Harrison. He told me yesterday, he sent this blog’s link to you. I was very happy you said my English was not so bad. Thank you very much for your encouragement. Please don’t hesitate to correct my mistake in writing. I know I still have lots of room to improve it. And I know Rome was not built in one day. So I am doing my best to improve it.

You son taught me a lot in this year. I appreciate him as well as Ike very much. You may be know who is Ike but I think Harrison should have told you about Ike. Ike is your son’s roommate. They have different philosophy, value and custom. In my point of view, they never can accept each other because of the “culture difference”, although they came from the same country.

Harrison tells me all the time, he should be a Chinese instead of a American. He is right. He knows Chinese culture even more then most Chinese. That’s why I like to talk with him every week. Personally, I also hope to talk with him and to drink his excellent tea every day. How nice he is!

Harrison also told me, you are a biologist. You quitted you job in the university and created an institute for the biology religion. Even thought it only has three members but you still have strong will to run it. I hope I can meet you someday or you can come to Macao to visit Harrison and me. Chinese has a saying: Fate brings people together no matter how far apart they may be. It was our fate that I could meet Harrison. So I believe that you and me will meet each other someday.

I am looking forward to seeing you.

Your faithfully

Ella

Erotic film and pornographic film

There were many friends asking me what was the difference between erotic film and pornographic film? Today, Harrison also asked me for the same question. I tried to fulfil his request. I usually to answer this question using this way: There are story and meaning in the erotic film. In this kind of film, you will see the good directing, acting and significative polt. In the pornographic film , you just find the sex. You can only see people making love in that kind of film. No any acting in it because you only need to focus on the sexy motion. Can you separate the difference?

I saw many erotic films in the past. I am interesting in why most people need sex and how they use sex to control others or get what do want from sex. I like to do research in sexuality.

Everyone should has his own interesting. Some people they like to shoot different sort of films , such as motion picture, literary film, musicals, comedy, tragedy, dracula film , swordsmen film, detective film, ethical film, affectional film, western film and cartoon film, etc.

I really want to make the first erotic film of Macao. But who dare to eat the first crab in Macao? I don’t know who has guts to do that. Or maybe I should change the method of shooting. In my erotic film, you maybe won’t see any sexy, but you still believe this is a real erotic film after watching. How can I do that? Please be patient. I believe that nothing in the world is difficult for one who sets his/her mind to it.

Big excitement again

I got a big excitement yesterday evening. No one wanted to face it, especially to me.
I couldn’t accept it.But everyone has his/her choice for his/her life.
So, I am writing below idiom to encourage myself.

Never say die. 永不言敗
No cross, no crown. 不歷風雨,不見彩虹
No sweet without sweat 先苦後甜
Nothing seek, nothing find 沒有追求則沒有收穫

Are they right?

No man is content

Could you tell me what the most important thing to human is? Health, family, lover, career, or…dream.

To some kind of people, busy would let them stopping thinking. I belong that kind of person—more job, more thinking.

When you feel tire, what would you do? Take a break , take a drink with friends, take a picture for yourself, or take a long vacation(悠長假期).

I prefer the last one. It means that is a true long vacation, not only one week or ten days.

I know you would tell me I just had three days in the past week. Three days are not enough to me. You would also say: Man should content with what you hold, but no man is content.

40 Love

(1) 40- Love

middle aged
couple playing
ten- nis
game edns
and they
go home
the net
will be-
between them

--------------------Roger McGough(1937-)


(1)40之愛

中年 　　夫婦
關係 　　正如
網球 　　對打
各有 　　爭持
賽後 　　二人
如常 　　歸家
隔膜 　　仍在
他倆 　　中間


-----------------Translated by Ella Cheong

Actually, should there was a line between both sieds. But I couldn't draw it on the internet. Pls give youself more imagination.

Different faces

Men have different faces in different situation. Which is the best you want to show?
In public, you have to show your smile face with high EQ. If you want to open your breast(敞開心屝) to everyone, it is nearly impossible. You ought to treat different people in different way.

Of course, you don’t need to pretend something. But you need to hide something that you don’t want to show it to others.

I am a honestly girl so I hate any fake (except DVD). I am used to treating everyone with heart. But some people still don’t admire my way. I don’t understand but I don’t care. I like directly to comment things .Morever, I seldom to consider things standing on their side. This is my demerit. So I have to change my character. But I know it is really difficulty.

Is it hard to deal with someone for something those about your lost face?(不為人知的人面,is it correct ?don’t know how to translate?) Even me, I also don’t understand me very much.

According to these kinds of pictures (they were designed and took by my Honey, Mr.Zhang). You can see my smile face. You can guess what I am from them. I often feel glad. On the other hand, I am also that kind of person that easy to get angry. Hahaha

That is the point that I want to say. Because, all of us have so different faces.


Men have different faces in different situation. Which is the best you want to show?
In public, you have to show your smile face with high EQ. If you want to make your confession to everyone, it is nearly impossible. You ought to treat different people in different way.

Of course, you don’t need to pretend something. But you need to hide something that you don’t want to show it to others.

I am a honestly girl so I hate any fake (except DVD). I am used to treating everyone with heart. But some people still don’t admire my way. I don’t understand but I don’t care. I like directly to comment things .Morever, I seldom to consider things standing on their side. This is my demerit. So I have to change my character. But I know it is really difficulty.

Is it hard to deal with someone for something those about your lost face?(不為人知的人面,is it correct ?don’t know how to translate?) Even me, I also don’t understand me very much.

According to these kinds of pictures (they were designed and took by my Honey, Mr.Zhang). You can see my smile face. You can guess what I am from them. I often feel glad. On the other hand, I am also that kind of person that easy to get angry. Hahaha

That is the point that I want to say. Because, all of us have so different faces.

Dear Yo,I have something to talk with you

I felt lose today. I couldn’t stop to think of Yo.( It sounds you like my lover,haha) Oh, I haven’t had the small shop’s food as my lunch. It was really bad. I ate the rice box without any feeling. That’s why I missed that we were sharing lunch in the Good tease restaurant.

Today I went to take photo for a conference. I took a girl for you over several times. The girl looked like you. Then I told Ann about my feeling; she said I was certainly crazy for you, I thought she was right.

After work, I walked down along the steps as usual but without you. So I missed the ten minutes that We shared our feelings after work, English and our future. It was very precious for me or you?(Maybe you didn’t enjoy it, because you had to answer my variety question about anything. But anyway, I was very enjoy it and will remember it forever. Will you?

I tried to call you today because I had something to talk with you. But didn’t have any response from you! I am used to talk with you everyday. I couldn’t bear nobody listen to me after work. I thought I need to take a long to accept it.

Cha-Tao and national day.

Three public holidays have been passed quickly. I couldn’t remember what I have done in these days. I did nothing but I felt laughing. I had a great time with my friends especially friends of Cha-Tao. We were really happy when I stayed together.

Last day was the republic china’s birthday. I hadn’t feeling about it.
But, my friends, Harrison was very excited for it. you might not understand
why I felt nothing. I don’t love this country or because of the other
reason? I don’t know. I only know that I don’t like to celebrate for any
political system.

So I didn’t take any picture and attend any celebration. But I attend our
Cha-Tao gathering. We had a great time. I love Cha-Tao more than national
day.

Translation

For the translation course’s homework, I translated into Chinese in three ways. I don’t know which is the best one. I only tried to practice using different wiring style.

Below are the original text and translation. Please feel free to comment.

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Studies serve for delight, for ornament and, for ability, Their chief use or delight is in privateness and retiring; for ornament, is in discourse; and for ability, is in the judgment and disposition of business.

翻譯（一）
讀書可修心養性，旁徵博覽，增添才情。
一個人時，閱書可自得其樂，其味無窮。
與人暢聚，引經據典，不易樂乎。
待人處世，足可提供足夠的判斷力。

翻譯（二）

讀書究竟有乜好？
其一，讀得興起，自尋快樂無友死。
其二，增廣見聞，人前晒命攞滿分。
其三，才華橫溢，評頭品足晤靠人。

翻譯（三）　
讀書是自尋喜悅之根，增廣見聞之因，才華橫溢之本。
無朋相伴，讀書為你尋到最佳的快樂伴侶。
高談闊論，讀書為你提供最好的養分。
處世待人，讀書為你找到最有才氣的判斷。