Something for 2006

At the end of 2005, grandfather left the world without saying a word to me.
At the beginning of 2006, Lover was taken away the annoying stick in his back.
Afterward, 2005 is about become the mark of history.
I think the year would be past by quietly
However, happy days will not last long.
At the end of 2006, one unhappy thing happened to me again.
The life is still life….. but lacked of something.
As I may know , no one can be perfect , no moon can be full all the time.
You couldn’t know what will happen next minute in your life.
We always hope that everything run smoothly , but the truth is opposite for ever.
I believe no one can beat you except yourself.
Once you feel cold , please run away from the iron house as far as you can.
Don’t stay in the same place where can’t give you any support.
Saying yourself in anyway!

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

These days I am in a bad mode that’s why I have been stopped writing for a long time.
Everyone can’t control those things that you don’t want to be happened. You may treat it as a challenge or not, but It always influence your emotion and schedule of life.
If you hate someone but you have to help him/her, what and how would you do? I don’t know, I am so suffering for it. Anyway, I will stand up again!

I will out of town tomorrow for two or three days. Let me send my best wish to every friend of mine – Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! All of your dreams will come true! ( I really like it!)

Corruption!

The century corruption was happening in Macau. However, one of Malfeasants was arrested; most of people still are thinking that kind of human is being here.
This is MACAU, we are in CHINA.

No one allow that corrupt issue to be happened again. But how to avoid it? One cold day does not make the river freeze three feet thick. I am thinking what is the best way to kick out the dead apple.

Our society has so many bad habits that we have to face . Something we want to change something, but we are absolutely lack of spunk even as our director.

Most of people just want to grasp money and repute, can you imagine that situation even you are rich but you are standing in a hell all the time.Today I read a news from HK newspaper , there are over 70% HK people just think how could they earn more and more money in their life. Apart from money, no more! How about Macau people, if you know it please let me know.

I always think of what is the most important thing to one’s life. In the past, I would say- dream , but right now, I have been changed to – choice .

Choice means that you are in a good condition—you have choice to give up or go on.
That is very lucky to us. Having choice is a happy thing. .It is better that you still have choice to do something. As you know , there are many people have been lost their choice.

I don’t know below article whether could express what I think or not, anyway, hope you can understand me.

I couldn’t down

Yesterday, after English class , I went back home as soon as I can, as I felt uncomfortable. I thought I must supper hungry. My dinner just a little bag things that I even didn’t know what it was. The woman said that was made by fibre.

I was afraid that I would die for hungry. I also felt cold, I believed I was ill. Oh! My haven, I didn’t want sick. I hated it. I have so many job to do. I couldn’t down.
Just the first day, I told myself I had to forbear it, otherwise, I would get half the results with double the effort.

Long-tongue

I read a new about woman :

For centuries men have joked that women talk a lot. Now a new book claims that this is true. Dr Luan Brizendine writes in her new book The Female Mind that women talk almost three times as much as men. Women usually speak an average of 20,000 words a day, whereas men average 7,000 words a day.

Are you a talker? I think woman ‘s tongue is longer than man, indeed. I also belongs the long-tongue group. But sometime I hate to talk with those people that I don’t talk to.

In fact, I love thinking instead of speaking. You would find out more interesting and imagination once you are thinking.

But we have to communicate with others, that’s why we have to extend our tongue although we don’t like to do that.

Am I willing to pay out for others?

My friend said to me yesterday “You are so selfish because you only find your friend whenever you need them. I was not accept her critics although, sometime, I am ,indeed.

In the past , I always stayed with my friends. Since six months ago, I had to change my custom because I had too many things to do, such as had to work, study English, ready books , watch movies, take pictures, etc. But she said that all above were my excuses. I only enjoyed doing what I like, is that wrong?

I believe that life is choice (learned from last night’s drama “three friends” directed by big bird. And live is chaining continually. I have been changing. Actually, that is my natural character – doing for myself.

If we are friend, we wouldn’t to account how much do you pay out for each other. I would never expect to get reward from someone. Before you want someone to pay out for you, you should ask yourself first “ Am I willing to pay out for others?

國金外望

I bought a book”國金外望”from the lately exhibition of book yesterday. That is I first time to see the author’s article. He/her style was really funny—even if the topic was serious that he/she mentioned.
In the articles, the author used an ironical, facetious style to describe you would see the dark, ugly of the stocks market.(Harrison, actually, I wanted to see 股票市場醜惡的一面, is that right? )
It is a short book, which only has 156 pages. I’ve almost finished it. You can guess it must be a nice book so that I couldn’t wait to finish it.

Weekend Trip

Weekend Trip
I made a new look for my hair. It looks like a big fish egg. (It is a flash escription?haha).
Last weekend I went to 小纜( I foget how to Pinyin).. The organization was very bad. I didn’t think I took even a good picture. But, I ate a lot of good food, stayed a night in a nice hotel.
Unimaginable,小纜’s food is very very nice especially小纜炸鯪魚球、生煎包、millet juice粟米汁 (How say in English, is it hard to translate, isn’t it?)
Wow, I think I attended a luxury tour although I only pay HK$450.
In despite of the good food, good hotel, I would never join this kind of trip again. You know I just want to take picture not for food .see?

I will post several pictures here later. 很期待吧?

A book about “tourist guide” in Japan

Hi friends,
I am reading an interesting book named 歌舞伎町案內人so that I can’t write every day. I am so absorbed in reading it . It was written by a Chinese man who is working as a “tourist guide”(Actually, in Chinese , this job should be called 拉皮條, I don’t know how to translate it , sorry) in Japan red-green lamp area (紅燈區). He stands at street to introduce sex places (性場所-hard to find this term. Harrison, Pls help to translate. Thanks) to tourist. I believe he is a good person although he has to face different people such as back and white. I admire his effort on his job and study , and he never to say give up even he has to face so many unhappy things. Moreover,
He was insisted to study fashion design even thought he had to work every day (from 7:00pm to 2:00am) . On the other hand, the reason why I read his book, because ... he is a handsome guy. Hahaha. Actually, he is not my cup of tea, he just belong that kind of milk-cream guy (how say 奶油小生). not muscle man. But I think he is attractive to many women.

I have to stop writting cause I need to read it again. Tell my what I think of it next time.

Add insult in injury

Last night I tried to translate three sentences, I found I knew all the word but at the end I couldn’t fully understand the meaning of them.
I was so disappointed. Translation is so beautiful. I wonder if I could take full course to improve my English skills.

Just now , I learned two saying from English Chat room: Add insult in injury( 傷口上灑鹽 或直譯受傷後再受到侮辱) .Bad things come into tows(禍不單行)

That ‘s why I love to remember the saying or idiom, I believe they are very useful when you want to tell someone something using compact sentence.

The saying: Add insult in injury is very popular using between people. Most people like to do that. They hate to see happy thinks come into someone even their friends.
It is very strange they would do that. I can’t imagine that happen to me. As I wrote a short article in Chinese last night , I am a simple girl. I never wan to do something to heart someone, however, I involuntary heart someone.


PS: These days, I am very busy so I don’t have enough time to study English. I feel ants in my pants. You know, we don’t have too much time; I don’t want to waste my time doing useless things. But, somehow, we must to do trashy things.

Anyway, friends, please enjoy every minute in you life!

One should have ideals

I heard my friend has fired her boss and then went back to Beijing. Wahhhhhhhhhh! So great!

She was study screenplay in Beijing . She shouldn’t has worked for administration, although it was related to film. But admin is admin, she couldn’t has enough time to write her script, even she hadn’t time to see one movie. Working 14hours a day, so crazy! Haha, actually, so am I , something.

Busy makes one crazy! If you don’t enjoy your job, don’t do that. It would waste your life.

I believe she will write a good play and get award someday as long as she works hard.
“An ideal is a kind of power ” 理想就是動力　──　Romane Rolland　

One should have ideals. Without ideals, there will be no good wishes or glorious reality. The life of a person who has an ideal is always hot.

Nihilist

Listening to the sound track of Kieslowsk’s film “Red” , the Music makes me feel quite and vacant (空靈的). I like this kind of feeling.

Today is the end of three days holiday. I had nothing to do except written several articles for my job. I don’t want to do that at home, but I don’t think I will have enough time to finish that in the coming week, indeed.

I also wasn’t learning English in the past two days. I am feeling guilty about it.
Feeling tired and tired , and it made me couldn’t do everything.
I can’t believe I have to go back to work tomorrow. So fast it passed.

Cai Yuanpei once said “ The value of life is measured by the career and not by a long life “ (人生的價值，在於事業不在於生命的長久)

But Sartre once said: “ As a person, everyone has the same value.”（對人而言，任何事物都有它的價值）

I believe Sartre’s saying. So I believe everyone has his/her value. Once you want to do something, just to do that without any doubt. Is it right? ( I think Harrison would ask me what’s that? I really hard to say what is it? It is clear that everyone has his/her idea. I don’t need to say it clearly)

Actually, I belong to that kind of person –nihilist.

My room is full of “Red”. I am thinking of the story. The actress’s eyes, the red color, the life, the fate, the chance, and the old woman who occurred in the series of “three colors”.

If you have been seen Kieslowsk’s film, you would know what I mentioned. And Also would know Why I mentioned Sartre and nihilism.

Kieslowsk’s was a nihilist

Follow my heart

Once I think everyone only has one time being here, I strongly want to have some changes for my life. I don’t just speak, speak and then do nothing. So, I will remember what I feel and what I want. I am those people who follow up their heart.

One single slip brings eternal regret, and looking back, you find that your whole life has passed away. (一失足成千古恨，回頭已是百年身)

I don’t want regret for my life. I must to do something that is meaningful to me and worth to do.

What things you would do until you die?

Sorry, friends, I am so busy these days, therefore, I haven’t updated here for a long time. Have nothing special things happened to me also. I just feel tire, tire and tire. I tired like a dead dog. Nothing to think, nothing to consider, even nothing to dream. Oh, so terrible this situation. I hope that it could be done apace.

I always think of it – we should put career in the first place in life or just should put dream in the first place in life. On Japanese man had said-For human being, the best career to undertake is to do what lasts eternally, which is also what life requires human beings as a whole. 人,最理想的的是做你最能持之以恆的事業，這亦是生命對人類的要求。

What things you would do until you die? My answers are ( I hope so)—writing(Chinese and English), shooting film, taking picture, no more at this moment. You know I always change my mind.

Everyone is responsible for his job

Today, I will have lots of things to be done. We are doing so much preparation for tomorrow event. I hope it will be done smoothly.

These days are busy to do something for myself. I couldn’t off work on time everyday, because something always out of control.
I am expecting my long vocation. But where they are ? Who knows.
A Chinese saying says: Everyone is responsible for his country. (天下興亡,匹夫有責).
I would like to change it to: Everyone is responsible for his job. (工作好壞，自負盈虧)．

Haha….Do you agree ?

PS: by the way , I am reading a book named English-Chinese and Chinese-English Translation: Practice and Research. written by Lin Wei. This is a really nice book.
If you are interesting in translation, you should buy one. I bought it in China , just coasted 50 yuan, is it very cheap? I agree.

2006.10.19 morning

Struggle is life

The important day to our university is coming in two days. My colleagues are crazing for it. Everything changes at any moment. How to prepare perfectly? It is a big knowledge.

In the past, I was in charge of several events for film. The preparation job were so difficulty and trouble. You had to consider anything. In other words, you not only have a clear brain and also good organizing , management as well as strength.

Some people are grouped to do something is a good feeling, something like film worker doing for a film. I like this kind of job. It is very exciting, but also very hard.

Today let me to use a sentence to encourage our lovely colleagues:

Struggle is life, and life is only advancement. –Ba Jin

2006.10.18 早

Money, I have none; my life ,at your disposal

The section 2 of translation course has been changed to another teacher. I learned several interesting sentences from him. Here they are:
Money, I have none; my life ,at your disposal. 錢，我沒有，命就一條！
My good luck attend you. 好運與你同在
Long live the People's Republic of China中華人民共和國萬歲
The child as he was, Jane was more then a match for him. 這小孩盡管頑皮，但壓根不是珍的對手
Not a finger did I lay on him.從沒有指責過他

The teacher spoke and changed the screen of powerpoint very fast so that I couldn’t write down all of the notes. When I get the full notes from him, I will introduce the others to you.

A letter for Harrison’s Mammy

Dear Harrison’s Mammy,

How do you do ? Even we don’t know each other and ever met before, but I know your information from your son ,Harrison. He told me yesterday, he sent this blog’s link to you. I was very happy you said my English was not so bad. Thank you very much for your encouragement. Please don’t hesitate to correct my mistake in writing. I know I still have lots of room to improve it. And I know Rome was not built in one day. So I am doing my best to improve it.

You son taught me a lot in this year. I appreciate him as well as Ike very much. You may be know who is Ike but I think Harrison should have told you about Ike. Ike is your son’s roommate. They have different philosophy, value and custom. In my point of view, they never can accept each other because of the “culture difference”, although they came from the same country.

Harrison tells me all the time, he should be a Chinese instead of a American. He is right. He knows Chinese culture even more then most Chinese. That’s why I like to talk with him every week. Personally, I also hope to talk with him and to drink his excellent tea every day. How nice he is!

Harrison also told me, you are a biologist. You quitted you job in the university and created an institute for the biology religion. Even thought it only has three members but you still have strong will to run it. I hope I can meet you someday or you can come to Macao to visit Harrison and me. Chinese has a saying: Fate brings people together no matter how far apart they may be. It was our fate that I could meet Harrison. So I believe that you and me will meet each other someday.

I am looking forward to seeing you.

Your faithfully

Ella

Erotic film and pornographic film

There were many friends asking me what was the difference between erotic film and pornographic film? Today, Harrison also asked me for the same question. I tried to fulfil his request. I usually to answer this question using this way: There are story and meaning in the erotic film. In this kind of film, you will see the good directing, acting and significative polt. In the pornographic film , you just find the sex. You can only see people making love in that kind of film. No any acting in it because you only need to focus on the sexy motion. Can you separate the difference?

I saw many erotic films in the past. I am interesting in why most people need sex and how they use sex to control others or get what do want from sex. I like to do research in sexuality.

Everyone should has his own interesting. Some people they like to shoot different sort of films , such as motion picture, literary film, musicals, comedy, tragedy, dracula film , swordsmen film, detective film, ethical film, affectional film, western film and cartoon film, etc.

I really want to make the first erotic film of Macao. But who dare to eat the first crab in Macao? I don’t know who has guts to do that. Or maybe I should change the method of shooting. In my erotic film, you maybe won’t see any sexy, but you still believe this is a real erotic film after watching. How can I do that? Please be patient. I believe that nothing in the world is difficult for one who sets his/her mind to it.

Big excitement again

I got a big excitement yesterday evening. No one wanted to face it, especially to me.
I couldn’t accept it.But everyone has his/her choice for his/her life.
So, I am writing below idiom to encourage myself.

Never say die. 永不言敗
No cross, no crown. 不歷風雨,不見彩虹
No sweet without sweat 先苦後甜
Nothing seek, nothing find 沒有追求則沒有收穫

Are they right?

No man is content

Could you tell me what the most important thing to human is? Health, family, lover, career, or…dream.

To some kind of people, busy would let them stopping thinking. I belong that kind of person—more job, more thinking.

When you feel tire, what would you do? Take a break , take a drink with friends, take a picture for yourself, or take a long vacation(悠長假期).

I prefer the last one. It means that is a true long vacation, not only one week or ten days.

I know you would tell me I just had three days in the past week. Three days are not enough to me. You would also say: Man should content with what you hold, but no man is content.

40 Love

(1) 40- Love

middle aged
couple playing
ten- nis
game edns
and they
go home
the net
will be-
between them

--------------------Roger McGough(1937-)


(1)40之愛

中年 　　夫婦
關係 　　正如
網球 　　對打
各有 　　爭持
賽後 　　二人
如常 　　歸家
隔膜 　　仍在
他倆 　　中間


-----------------Translated by Ella Cheong

Actually, should there was a line between both sieds. But I couldn't draw it on the internet. Pls give youself more imagination.

Different faces

Men have different faces in different situation. Which is the best you want to show?
In public, you have to show your smile face with high EQ. If you want to open your breast(敞開心屝) to everyone, it is nearly impossible. You ought to treat different people in different way.

Of course, you don’t need to pretend something. But you need to hide something that you don’t want to show it to others.

I am a honestly girl so I hate any fake (except DVD). I am used to treating everyone with heart. But some people still don’t admire my way. I don’t understand but I don’t care. I like directly to comment things .Morever, I seldom to consider things standing on their side. This is my demerit. So I have to change my character. But I know it is really difficulty.

Is it hard to deal with someone for something those about your lost face?(不為人知的人面,is it correct ?don’t know how to translate?) Even me, I also don’t understand me very much.

According to these kinds of pictures (they were designed and took by my Honey, Mr.Zhang). You can see my smile face. You can guess what I am from them. I often feel glad. On the other hand, I am also that kind of person that easy to get angry. Hahaha

That is the point that I want to say. Because, all of us have so different faces.


Men have different faces in different situation. Which is the best you want to show?
In public, you have to show your smile face with high EQ. If you want to make your confession to everyone, it is nearly impossible. You ought to treat different people in different way.

Of course, you don’t need to pretend something. But you need to hide something that you don’t want to show it to others.

I am a honestly girl so I hate any fake (except DVD). I am used to treating everyone with heart. But some people still don’t admire my way. I don’t understand but I don’t care. I like directly to comment things .Morever, I seldom to consider things standing on their side. This is my demerit. So I have to change my character. But I know it is really difficulty.

Is it hard to deal with someone for something those about your lost face?(不為人知的人面,is it correct ?don’t know how to translate?) Even me, I also don’t understand me very much.

According to these kinds of pictures (they were designed and took by my Honey, Mr.Zhang). You can see my smile face. You can guess what I am from them. I often feel glad. On the other hand, I am also that kind of person that easy to get angry. Hahaha

That is the point that I want to say. Because, all of us have so different faces.

Dear Yo,I have something to talk with you

I felt lose today. I couldn’t stop to think of Yo.( It sounds you like my lover,haha) Oh, I haven’t had the small shop’s food as my lunch. It was really bad. I ate the rice box without any feeling. That’s why I missed that we were sharing lunch in the Good tease restaurant.

Today I went to take photo for a conference. I took a girl for you over several times. The girl looked like you. Then I told Ann about my feeling; she said I was certainly crazy for you, I thought she was right.

After work, I walked down along the steps as usual but without you. So I missed the ten minutes that We shared our feelings after work, English and our future. It was very precious for me or you?(Maybe you didn’t enjoy it, because you had to answer my variety question about anything. But anyway, I was very enjoy it and will remember it forever. Will you?

I tried to call you today because I had something to talk with you. But didn’t have any response from you! I am used to talk with you everyday. I couldn’t bear nobody listen to me after work. I thought I need to take a long to accept it.

Cha-Tao and national day.

Three public holidays have been passed quickly. I couldn’t remember what I have done in these days. I did nothing but I felt laughing. I had a great time with my friends especially friends of Cha-Tao. We were really happy when I stayed together.

Last day was the republic china’s birthday. I hadn’t feeling about it.
But, my friends, Harrison was very excited for it. you might not understand
why I felt nothing. I don’t love this country or because of the other
reason? I don’t know. I only know that I don’t like to celebrate for any
political system.

So I didn’t take any picture and attend any celebration. But I attend our
Cha-Tao gathering. We had a great time. I love Cha-Tao more than national
day.

Translation

For the translation course’s homework, I translated into Chinese in three ways. I don’t know which is the best one. I only tried to practice using different wiring style.

Below are the original text and translation. Please feel free to comment.

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Studies serve for delight, for ornament and, for ability, Their chief use or delight is in privateness and retiring; for ornament, is in discourse; and for ability, is in the judgment and disposition of business.

翻譯（一）
讀書可修心養性，旁徵博覽，增添才情。
一個人時，閱書可自得其樂，其味無窮。
與人暢聚，引經據典，不易樂乎。
待人處世，足可提供足夠的判斷力。

翻譯（二）

讀書究竟有乜好？
其一，讀得興起，自尋快樂無友死。
其二，增廣見聞，人前晒命攞滿分。
其三，才華橫溢，評頭品足晤靠人。

翻譯（三）　
讀書是自尋喜悅之根，增廣見聞之因，才華橫溢之本。
無朋相伴，讀書為你尋到最佳的快樂伴侶。
高談闊論，讀書為你提供最好的養分。
處世待人，讀書為你找到最有才氣的判斷。

Thank you my love YoYo

Last day was YoYo’s last day working in our office. We were too busy to held a farewell part for her and even to say a goodbye to her. I felt very sorry for it. My dear YoYo, please forgive me.

You are the best nice friends that I have ever known. As my said to you, I really want that we can keep a long-life relationship. I am afraid you will forget me.

In the past year, I learned so much from you. I still want to learn a lot from you, not only for English but also the life of attitude. I think it is very important.

In the past year, I fell very comfortable with you. You are good patience fully out of my imagination. How can you keep your temple in a peaceful situation often? I think Mr. Kuong is very luck to have you.

Anyway, I hope you can have a good future. I surely you must have a bright life as son flower.

Don’t forget me. And don’t refuse and call and my question about English at any time , any day, any month and any year.

I am missing without you.
I am losing without you.
I can’t believe that you won’t stand by me.
I can’t believe that you won’t come with me.

Friend, when you feel tired, don’t forget you still have me
Friend, when you fell lost, don’t forget I will come with you.

Mid-night Birthday Party at office

I just came back from Sopia’s home.

Last night I worked until mid night around 1:00. It was horrible. I almost went mad for job. I hardly opened my eyes to see the words that I had to proofread without any mistakes.
Originally, I had go to Sopia’s home at 10:00pm but I couldn’t go on time at the end.
When I almost finished my work, I saw a guy who was looking me at outside of my office. You know, it was mid-night, I felt scale. Then, I was the guy was Harrison.
Harrison, Ike, Sopia and Island brought the birthday cake to me. Oh man! I was so surprised. I couldn’t believe that. They were so nice to me.

They sang the birthday song in different languages such as English, Mandarin, Cantonese and Portuguese. That was the most beautiful song that I have ever heard.
I will remember this moment for forever.

After my surprise birthday party, we went to Sopia’s home to continue our gathering.
Sopia cooked some Portuguese food ,salad and vegetable soup for us. The taste was good.

We sit on the floor to talk and drink. I was happy with them together. But I was tired so that couldn’t speak a lot and slept quite fast. I held the same post sleeping on the floor. But they talked whole night. Can you imagine how they could do that? They were full of energy.

Anyway, friends, you gave me a very special night.
Friends, you gave me a very good cake.
I love you all. Hope can with you celebrating my every birthday.

Mr Chang giving me a big surprise for my birthday

I’ve got a very big surprise from Mr.Chang that I have never had before tonight. I will absolutely never forget it. I knew he has been wanted to practice(實踐) it for a long time. This was not easy to make decision, but he did with no any worry. Suddenly, I am so jealously of him. I want to do the same thing as him. As the matte of fact, I can’t to that, at least, right now I can’t do that. Anyway, I always support his decision. As a man, should have enough brave to do something for himself, even if no one knows it is wrong or right.

Due to this case, I thing Mr. Chang have changed his mind. He will do something that it is worth to do as me. From now on, we have to change our life or just doing things that we really want to do.

Today was my important day. Lots of things have been happened. It was also my birthday , after that, I will have to face more challenges in my life. I don’t know if I could win but I will try my best.

My birthday wishes are – all of my dreams will come true. I talked to myself, for one thing – English, I will let you see how I win you.

PS: I received many calls and message from my friends. They sent their blessing to me. My colleagues held a mini birthday party for me even though they were very busy today. Ah Fa took a cake to come to campus. I was quite moved by her sincerity although I was not her target (joking)．　

It is hard to express my appreciation in few words. (片言隻語難表謝意)But let me take this opportunity to say thank you to all . Thank you very much. I hope our friendship will last forever.

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Birthday thinks

Can you imagine that someone who works more than fourteen hours? Perhaps I can tell you.

First: Head is dizzying.

Second: Eyes are tired to open Third: Hands are not my hands.

Fourth: Bed is home.

Fifth: Don’t want to work any more.

Sixth: Anything is not anything.

Why do I need to work everyday? May I just stay at home for nothing? Do you know what I am thinking about? Tomorrow will be end.

It was horrible today. I was working until 11:30pm.

In order to avoid to say happy birthday to myself at office, I run out of there before 12:00.
Even though I wasn’t expecting that will have something happen to me.

In the pass years, I used to prepare something for myself as a gift or for memory, but tonight was nothing. It was an unforgettable day although happened nothing.
I have decided to buy one thing as my birthday’s present within this week.
What would I need? Let me think one night.

It must be a big gift.

What would I want to achieve for the coming year?
Pls see below my poem. You will get more from it.

Birthday thinks

What a pity my birthday eve. I need to type countless text.

Do, do , do , I moved like a screw.

What I am expecting for the next. I think I just want to live.

Press, press , press, pressure only can be released by myself.

Nothing can be changed, nothing can be touched.

I might only change my mind. I might only change my life.

One more step, you will sense the space.

One more eye, you will see the sky.

What a lovely my future date. I need to plan for my day.

Working, working, day and day.

Studying , studying, night or day.

Playing, playing, never think.

Struggling

I attended an interview today. I don’t know whether it was a right decision. Anyone told me that I should attend it before, as I need this job. I need to save money for my further purpose. Anyway, I was there and finished it.

We usually don’t want to step double, at the end, we have to face the reality. No doubt, this choice has already changed my life. I’m waiting the result. If the result doesn’t meet my expectation, I will still have next choice. I am still struggling in which result should I love?. I am not sure. When my mother gave birth to me , I had a embarrassment for making decision for myself.

After the interview, I found my poor English is not enough to express what I was thinking. How can I improve English in a shortly time? I always ask me and my friends. I think, the best way is -- no job , no fun , just studying at home, speaking with English teacher and friends. This is also my current dream, although I know it would not come true soon However, I believe in nothing is impossible. I am expecting my dream will come true someday.

Release your stress

I had lunch with my colleagues this noon. While I having my delicious meal, I felt very blessedness because I was being. I thought of life was beautiful at that moment.
Why I had this thinking? This was very oddness and mystery. This kind of feeling frequently happens to me. This moment I feel happy and next second I will be feel unhappy. Am I a sensitivity girl? Perhaps I am.

Before yesterday, a woman jumped out of a higher building and died. She was a civil servant. She was depressed by her job. I don’t think anything can’t be changed. If she didn’t like her job and her higher-up, why not quitted the job and find another one again?.

Most people do not know how to release their pressure. They do not know what is most important to them? I think there are nothing can’ not give up. How I release my stress? I would try to speak to my close friends or write down on my article. Language may be a good way to release your stress.

Mind Map

I attended an internal training course named “Mind Map”.
The course‘s intention is teaching us how to enhance our memory?
What’s the best or easy way to remember things?
Imagination and association are the most important elements when you try to remember something. For example, When you start to remember an article, you should try to use symbol or graphic to remember its contents easily.
I always forget something so I hope this course can strengthen my capability of memory.

The next class will be on this Saturday. I am expecting it.

A woman who slept with 100 men

Today I read a news from South China Morning Post. It was reported that a Guangzhou sex blogger Mu Zimei (木子美)who have slept with 100 men. Now she is advertising for a husband in Beijing.

Her ad calls for him to be”Tall and slim with pale skin, eyes not too big and a curving smile. (高而瘦長,皮膚帶點蒼白,細眼,嘴角帶笑). And he should be aged between 25 and 35 and be living in Beijing. Foreigner and virgins ok, too”

Ms Mu told the reportered she wants her husband should have sense of humour, but not be a chatterbox (喋喋不休 或囉囉嗦嗦 或長氣袋 或像唐憎一樣講過不停). He should be clean , not a neat freak(潔癖).

There have been about 2500 responses, including an offer from a woman in Australia.
Ms Mu doesn’t want to live together with her husband all the time. Just live together at the weekend or spend time apart. She wants a pretty open marriage. She agonists a normal saying among women that is “you’re mind and I’m yours.” I agree with her point. One day if I marry someone, I still mine.

She doesn’t like living together with someone as well. So do I . I want to be free. And one difference from her is I am not seeking a husband. I thought just be friend is better than husband. I don’t believe marriage.

Ms Mu changes man so often. The main reason is she likes lasting love. So she has to sleep with many men. I am so curious how come she wants a husband instead of many men. Frankly, I don’t understand and don’t like this kind of woman. But I admire her courage to make a clean breast in public.

For her more details, pls see below site
http://muzimei.51da.com/

Landscape in the mist

What a busy today! I can’t relax even one second.

After leaving office, I didn’t want to face my cool computer again. So I went out for taking picture. Why do I love taking picture? Because I like thinking and it can let me feel relax. Besides ,I like something are captured in my lens. In camera, things can be beautiful more then true.


I like this picture that I stood in front of the window frame. I became one of the frames. I expected to see something but nothing. It seemed like my current suitation. I cound't see my future. In front of me, there were a wall. I hoped to pull it down but I can't. Actually, I didn't do nothing same as the me in this picture. Can you see something in the fram? Does it look like landscape in the mist. (霧中風景）

In this picture, I set Mr. Change standing behind me and looking at the frame. In the picture, our distance was so close, but actually we never touch each other. Otherwise, when you see it, then you will find that there are two viewpoints. It was very interesting. In future, I will take “a series of distance” for it . This series will be named “Want Touch” . Friends, Are you expecting?

Tell you, I don’t like to write down any idea for my creation. I just leave them in my mind. I like improvisation so I am not a good planning person.

Tonight I just took several pieces of pictures. But it has been spent around 2 hours. Creation is an expensive work.

Existing fate is not existing forever既定命運不會存在永遠

Everyone has his taste of Music. I like country music and classical. Maybe you like pop, jazz, hip hop or rap-talk. Don’t want to change other’s taste. Taste is very special. I hard to express it truly. No high class or low class in taste. But it is classified by some sort of people. That people are expecting to use this stupid way to raise their value.

Some people lack of ideas of their own.(缺乏主見) They always follow up some guidance of their parents, friends, teachers as well as fellows. They don’t like to have their decision. I know, somehow we are tired to make any decision for ourselves ,indeed . We are willing to leave the chance to those who wants to show their power of personality. In some cases, strong as me, I won’t have ideas on something. I am happy to wait better ideas from my friends. Why? Just want to keep an open mind to accept any newthing. If their ideas are sharp, then you would get more value things from them. Furthermore, you could know what are they thinking about?

Let’s get back to the topic. What number of music do you like? I like to hear background music in film(電影配樂), especially the music in Krzysztof Kieslowski’s films. All of music in his films I love. Kieslowski was a genius of film. His film are full with light and heavy of life, contingency, chance, choice for human life, powerless of life and foreordination. I was shocked and flushed by his filming sadness. I also felt lonely, as well as the important thing that made me fell empty for life. I felt I couldn’t control my fate. I knew it was true.

You never want to change the fate. Fatally, some people usually attempt to challenge it. But at the end, their efforts had no smallest chance of success. As a matter of fact, Fate is not allowed to change. Foreordination always is the main topic in Kieslowski’s film. He was a pessimist(悲觀主義者). So when you watch his movie, you will feel extremely sad . After leaving cinema, you will never forget this kind of feeling.

Surely, If you are optimistic, soon you would forget the mood in Kieslowski’s film .Although something has been existed, you still have power to change it. Existing fate is not existing forever. (既定命運不會存在永遠)---(Friends, I want to express the meaning of Chinese, but my English is not enough to express it clearly. Please help!)

PS: When I started to write this article, I only wanted to use five words to make sentence-- Taste / Guidance / number / existing. Eventually, I finished an article using them. Oh, that was my fate, I couldn’t control. )

Romantic Moment

This picture was taken one mother ago. The color was very beautiful. I specially like the old couple in the picture.

It was so romantic. I think the felling of romantic do not belong among young people. Older people still have right to enjoy their love and show their love in public.

Actually, I was not sure whether they were couple or not. Anyway, artist is always needs more imagination. Am I right ?

but who cares of it. Just enjoy the romantic moment in our life.

Electric Shadow

I’ m reading a book named Electric Shadow”(同場加映)written by Mark(邁克) who is a famous film critic . I have forgotten the first time that I read his book.
I like his writing style. He use many very local word in his articles. The wordings are Cantonese style, funny as well as interesting. Once his new book is on sell in market , I must buy them home. I can’t wait to read his book. He is one of my favorite authors that I have ever seen.

Dog and Cat

“I was a dog ten years ago. Ten years later will be a cat “ 十年前我可能是狗，十年後我可能是貓“　This sentence said by the top brilliance of mind of Hong Kong Tao Kit (香港第一才子陶傑)。

I read his interview in Ming Pao published on 10 Sept 2006. I know he is very popular in cultural society of HK. His English is very good. But I seldom read his book. I just know he is a cultural worker. He writes book, hosts radio programs, etc. He also was named mass person.

Dog always follow his/her master. It has not idea about his/her life. But it is kind,friendly and warm. Cat is snaky and lonely. Tt only needs itself.

what do you think? If you have to choose an animal to represent you , then what would you choose?

Photo downloaded from
http://www.rthk.org.hk/elearning/betterenglish/speech_mail.htm

How to make decision

Macao is changing nowadays. A lot of people can earn enough to support them to spend money in many ways. But to me I just want to spend my money in a reasonable way. When I need something, then I buy something. In reality, I save money in different way. In reality, I am not stingy person. I am used to buying something for my interest.
Unluckily, my interests are too many so than I have to spent a lot of money for them in my life.

Many people they buy a great deal of things that they are not really need them. They just want to hold something to fulfill their desire of shopping. These kind of people were named shopaholic by psychologist. There are Hong Kong movie untitled the shopaholics which about a woman who could not stop shopping . And the main actor in the film, he had big problem in making decision. I think I also have the same problem as him especially when I have to decide what kind of food I need to eat.

How to make decision? That is a quite big problem to me. Not only I have this problem on choosing food but also on other things. I’m a multi-mind girl.( I mean, 三心兩意) so I invariably change my mind.

Woke up lately

I think today’s weather was suitable to oversleep. The sense of autumn is so nice and comfortable. I enjoy this kind of sense.

I woke up very late, around 13:00. I couldn’t imagine that I woke up so late. I was afraid that I would be late for the examination started on 14:00PM. After washing my face, eating several pieces of bread, I ran out of home. Luckily, I reached examination room on 14:10PM. It wasn’t late too much, I thought. Everyone examinee was doing the paper seriously.

The examination questions were not very difficulty to me except the part of translation. But because I was there, I had responsibility to finish it. I believe that I had enough ability to do that, although the result was not perfect, I knew. I finished it using my heart.( This sentence is very Cantonese)

After examination, I went to have my hair cut. It spent me almost two hours. The hairstyles just made my hair little change. So when I got home, the first sentence Mr.Chang talked to me: ”Did he cut your hair?” (咁叫剪左頭髮？) Yes, He did, sure.

I was not satisfied the hairstyles that he did this time. I have decided I will find another one instead next time. And the other reason, that the fee have been risen to $140 for cutting hair. It was very expensive. I could not bear this sort of high consumption.

Ten minutes firework

I went to Zhu Hoi by myself today. I didn’t want to stay home because Aunt needed to clean up my mass home this morning.
I felt extremely tired today because I stayed tea resident’s home whole night. Actually, I already couldn’t control my eyes at 1:00am last night. In my mind just wanted to lay on a sweet bad immediately. But Ike, Tracy, Harrison and the new friend, Stanley a Indian handsome guy still full of energy. While I slept in the little sofa, I still heard their talking voice.

Though Ike and Stanley talked whole night, in the morning they wanted to drink coffee. A cup of morning coffee? They were really crazy guys, thought.

When I came back home, I just wanted to jump in my big bed at once. At the end I didn’t want to waste my time so I decided leave home for China.

I went to bookstore, massage as usual. Nothing special at Zhu Hoi today.

Tonight was the second scene of the international firework 2006. I went to lakeside to record the remarkable moment.. The firework started on time. But ten minutes later, it suddenly ended up. I supposed it would start again but it hadn’t. It must be caused by weather.

And then, Mr.Chang and me left with disappointment. In these shortly time, we only took several pieces of photos. It weren’t very good. But the firework in the picture seemed clearer than the first time that we took in the last weekend.

PS: Tomorrow I will have an exam. I am not sure if I can get a high mark, but I will do my best.
God blesses me!

Thanks, God!

Last night, I thought I would die for thunder and rainstorm.
While I drove my motorcycle on the most longest bridge in Macao, it was suddenly rain heavily. I became a raining hen(落湯雞) even I dressed in an raincoat.
I was afraid that I should be attacked by strong bolt. Hence, I ceaselessly prayed that I wouldn’t die on the bridge.
How deeply dark the city! I had no longer to see frontage. Macao seemed to be disappeared at that moment. Maybe I could describe it using Lost of city!
Lucky, I eventually went back home around 7:30PM without any accident. I deeply appreciated God’s kindness and attention.
I got home at the end! Thanks, God!

First General English Class

I’ve been expected for the general English which host by DSEJ, since I took it one month ago. Today was the first class so I went to classroom at 7:00. The teacher, Ms Wu, actually she would like us to call her Mrs.Wu, who was burn in HK . She was graduated from Hong Kong University. When she studied in HKU, her family immigrated to Canada. Later on, she went to there to join her family either. She got her master degree in Canada. Many years later ,She went back to HK. Then She came to Macau in 1990 starting her teaching life in Macao until now.

Ms Wu looks so young even she is not young. She always smiles and speaks fast. But sometime, in case everyone knows what she says, she would speak slowly. Tonight, We played a game at the beginning of class. She showed all of photos that were taken on her every birthday in the past. Everyone was given a piece. Then we arranged it according to her birthday’s sequence. We need to introduce what happened in the pictures one by one. I was given the picture of one-year old birthday so I was the first one to introduce the background story to my classmates.

This was a good way to push us to speak. After game, we began our lesson on. Today’s lesson taught “introducing friend”. I fell a little boring because I though it was too easy. However, it was first time I was there. I should be patient. Just wait next class I though to myself. Hope I can learn much than today.

Feel boring

I am tired and tired and tired. Tired for working, studying, walking, driving, talking, eating, thinking, joking, aspiring, scrawling, celebrating, feeling, touching, acting,
something, doing, singing, chatting, moving, speaking, smiling, boring, laughing, skinning, skipping, snapping, interesting, downing, listening, scaling, steaming, matching, flattering, littering, nothing, supporting, earning, sitting, laying, lying, sleeping, standing, opening, closing, shaking, keeping, going, zooming, nosing, appealing, bothering, canceling, dancing, drawing, effecting, anything….


Do you think I am so silly to write these words? I think I am.

Today, I fell lost of any strength to do anything. I was a good actress to hide myself, that’s why nobody had found my feeling. My feeling likes these picture that can't see anything.

I always think of my life. What is life? What am I going to do? What I want to do ? What can make me feel happy?

No answer who can give me ? I feel lost.

I don’t want to live a standard life, for instance, work for kids, earn for house, etc.
I just want to work for my dream. Except it, no more, believe me.

Fish scale

I was not used to take landscape .I’ve changed right now because I think the landscape can record the changing of moment of the nature. Certainly I still love to take people. I still love to use picture expressing my idea about this city live and changes.

Today, the weather was very fascinating that full of fish scale . While I see it, I couldn’t to find even a word to describe. How beautiful! I was absolutely captured by it.

What do you think? If you want to see more pictures, please welcome to my album and leave your costly comments.

Ella Cheong ‘s Album:
http://www.rphotobase.com/ellacheong,24591

TV VS Movie

Since I took an English course I have not much time to watch
I rarely watch television program, but every once a while I watch the late show David Letterman. I like his style and humor. I know there are many couch people all over the world since the television had been invented. While the kind of people are sitting in couch to watch TV, they eat potato. We also call them Couch Potato.

Most of people always say TV make them fell comfy and release stress. In my point of view, it is waste of time. If you spend several hours to watch the series program, you can do nothing every night in terms of reading a book, learning, listening music, watch movie.

TV program has its benefit infrequently. When I meet my friends now and then, they will talk about last night ‘s TV program. In this situation, I only can say “I have no idea about it, sorry.” Therefore, TV would be a good topic to communicate between friendships. TV is the most common measure in Society, though.

Nowadays, lots of people choose to watch DVD at home instead of seeing a movie at cinema. In the past, there are matinee that screened movie outside on daytime. I have never seen it in Macao. But when I was ten-year-old, I saw it a time. I was sitting on the ground. The move was a classical Chinese movie that about 72 families lived in a house. It was very interesting, indelible, unforgotten. You only take a little bucks for matinee in somewhere, in my countryside, It was entirely free for all. Now, there are no longer matinee will be screened, the village people love TV more than any entertainment.

I understand why TV is more popular then film. At first, TV is free for charge. Second, You can watch TV without thinking, it will tell you anything throughout the dialogues. But in film, you can find out something that you cannot imagine. Third, film is the eighth art, you would enjoy the music, photograph, fine arts, sculpture, fashion, etc.

I’m craving will be have a matinee in Macao on occasion. It’s my dream.


PS: Today I learned below new words. I try to make them into an essay. The sentences are not very well, pls free to comment and correct.
Every once in a while/now and then/crave /rarely/infrequently/ comfy/bucks/on occasion/peak/benefit/matinee/couch person/shrink/out throat business/society/measure

Moody Sunset

It was very wonderful, wasn’t it ? You can see how beautiful it was.

I decided to take picture for it after work. Coincidentally, Mr Chang had the same wish with me. He was going to pick the two photo cameras after work.
I stayed in UM until he came. When he arrived , We immediately drove to the seaside where we can shoot the Macao’s three bridges and coastwise landscape.

I like taking picture in the magic hour that could make your pictures have more gradation. You could see this picture has three levels including the foreground, the middle distance and the background. I especially love the blue color of background. If it is taken at night, I ensure you will not see the blue color instead of black.




Can you fell a few moody feelings in thes pictures? Althought I am not satisfied with the composition, I like the dense red color in the sky.

Make Sentences for Practice English

GDP
This year, GDP (Gross Domestic Product)of Macao has been increasing.

rust
He always does mathematics in order to keep his mind from rust.

As far as
I study English as far as I can.

Class
In the past, India divided four classes. The lower class couldn’t marry to high class.

Come along
Their production work was coming along very well.

Reach
The population in Macau have been reached half million.

Epidemiologist
Epidemiologists have been struggling with epidemic.

Infect
The SARS quickly spread throughout human being.

Red Picture

Do you believe religion? I am an atheist. These days I heard more information about Buddhism from my friends and my English teacher who are Buddhists.

I don’t know what did the monk do in that painting. Why his face was black?
He was a good person or bad?

There only were tow people in that painting, one was the monk, another was a women. I thought she was Kwan-yin. I eventually only took the little part of the full pictures because I liked the red color. It was very sharp.

Photo-taking in front of Culture Centre

Today 's afternoon, I found a nice background to take pictures—Culture Centre. The red banner is put on the steps. I like that kind of color. These pictures all were taken by Mr.Chang.
I was dancing like the girl in the banner. I thougt I was flying like a bird.

Am I a good model? I think they are very beautiful even I looked so fat in the pictures. How do you think?

Good sites for learn English

Last night, I studed English until 3:am. I read some English website. One of website owner said that if you want to improve English, you must have motivation. You learn English because you must love it, not for homework As long as you continue to study over2 years, you will make progress.

I also found some websites to learn English. Here they are:

http://www.rthk.org.hk/rthk/radio4/songbirds/
In this website, you can hear some radio story in English. It is suitable English beginner to hear because the speaker speak very clear.

http://www.studioclassroom.com/sc/sc_tv.php
It is a Taiwan website. They provide an English program every day. It takes around 15 minutes. The presenters all are native.

http://www.voanews.com/english
It is a good site for you to practice your listening. In this site, you not only can practice your listening but also learn more about America society.

http://www.simpleenglishnews.com/
This site provides a lot of simple news. When you read them, you don’t have to check the dictionary. When you read it, you will find you English is very well.

http://www.englishbaby.com/
I see it every day. I like their Today’s English Lesson. It is very useful. My English teacher always uses their articles as teaching material.

Anderson and Landscape in the Mist

I woke up at 9:00. A beautiful weekend but I have to English class. Today, the teacher taught us about Immigration. He ask me which country would most want to move in.
I thought a moment. Actually, I had ever thought about this topic for myself.

Therefore, I mentioned Danmark. Why not is other county that I mentioned? Because of Anderson, who was Danmark ‘s fairy tale novelist. The teacher didn’t know more about Danmark. He always asked why didn’t have students to choose Canada. One of classmates wants to immigrant to USA .

In fact, I don’t like United State very much, but I admitted she is a melting pot. There have a lot of change to achieve your dreams. That’s why I want to study English in there.

After, I had another class about film. I was so tired so I didn’t go. Oh, I wasted my money once again. I slept from 2:00pm to 6:00pm. I thought it was very crazy. You know, that were 4 hours that I did nothing, just sleeping. I fell very regret.

Later on, I went out to have dinner with Mr.Chang. We went to eat Sushi. Tonight dinner cost $139. It was very expensive, thought.

After dinner, the most thing that I have to do every weekend is … watch movie.
We screened a Greek movie “Landscape in the Mist /Topio stin omichli” directed by Angelopoulos.. It was talking about life. I can hardly to say what is life. I was impressed by the filming. The director said “It is a journey which is the initiation into life. On the road the children learn everything - love and death, lies and truth, beauty and destruction.”

A very nice movie.

Lovely Pictures

I went to the Macau Fisherman ‘s Wharf with my cousins last Saturday.

I took many pictures for them. Please see how they are lovely.

Woman Talk--About Love

MM: Hi, YY, We haven’t met for long / I haven’t seen you for long / It has been long since I last met you. How are you doing?
YY: So far so good. I just lost my love.

MM: What’s going on? I thought you are married with David.
YY: I hope/wish so. We had broken up three months ago.

MM: What was wrong with you and him?
YY: Had third person between us . She is my friend. I don’t think he would love her. I’m better then her, I guarantee, in any aspect. You know, she is just twenty years old, 20 less then him. It’s unbelievable. He is physically attached to her boy.

MM: That might be one of the problems that caused. Have you tried to find out the problems between you and solve them?
YY:I don’t think I have any problem on it. All are men’s problem.
MM: You’ve a strong character. You always want hem to follow you. You are the instructor.

YY: That’s my character. I can’t change it. If he loves me, he must bear / tolerate me.

Daily instruction for Learning English

Below is my daily instruction for learning English. I help that I can follow it. If I don't have enough time to finish the said items every day, I will at least finish three of them.

Mon:
>English class
>TOEFL exercise (1 hour)
>Reading English news or fiction(half hour)
>Watching English TV program David Letterman or News. (1 hour)
Tue:
>Watching an English movie(2 hours)
>Writing for English Blog or Chinese Blog (1 hour)
> Watching English TV program David Letterman or News. (1 hour)

Wed:
>English class
>TOEFL exercise (1 hour)
>Reading English news or fiction(half hour)
>Watching English TV program David Letterman or News. (1 hour)

Thu:
>Watching an English movie(2 hours)
>Writing for English Blog or Chinese Blog (1 hour)
> Watching English TV program David Letterman or News. (1 hour)

Fri:
>English class
>TOEFL exercise (1 hour)
>Reading English news or fiction(half hour)
>Watching English TV program David Letterman or News. (1 hour)

Sat:
> TOEFL exercise (1 hour)
>English class
>Writing for English Blog or Chinese Blog (1 hour)

Sun:
>English class
>TOEFL exercise (1 hour)

Film Music

I attended a film course that held by Cultural Centre today. There were about fifty classmates. This was an accepted number for a film class in Macao, I though.

It was the second times of these courses . The topic was the music in film. The lecturer came from HK who is teaching film’s music in several universities in HK as a part lecturer.

She looked very young. She knows so much knowledge about music especially classical music. She taught us the music how’s important in film, even the music can be placed dialogues to say story.

Most of famous film director all over the world, they are crazing about music and know how to put music in a right scene of film such as Kieslowski, Krzysztof, Stanley Kubrick, Wong Kar Wai, etc.

In these directors that the lecture mentioned below, my best love is Kieslowski. I love him not only his story but the music. Kieslowski used to express the chance of fate, for instance, in the Blind Chance that was finished in 1987, he presented three different lives about the same man. The man got three chances for his lives when different things happened to him. Besides this one, Kieslowski also made many great films in his life. “Three colors’, “The Decalogue” and “the Double Life of Veronique”, etc , all are great films that he made.

The lecturer also introduced lots of composers and musician. After class, I really wanted to buy music CD according to her introduction but I did not have time tonight. Expecting to buy them next week .

Thought for The Da Vinci Code

I saw the film - the Da Vinci Code today. The film was not attractive. But I though many people would have shocked as it broke the tradition of faith in God. Why the people don’t want to believe the Jesus was a man but not a God? Why didn’t allow Jesus to get marry with a woman and then had a baby? I thought some people who believe the God, in their mind, they don’t trust a normal person would die for them. They only beleive God could do that.

I went to see the film with Ike. He also chose to believe the story even he is a Catholic. If the story were true, thus many people would have more freedom. The story raise women’s status. Women were not guilty. She could give a birth to baby for Jesus. It was a great mission, isn’t it ?

By the way, please be reminded that the couple, Jesus and Maria had a baby. It was very important that the baby was a girl. I thought if you were feminist, you would like this story very much.

I am not really like this film. I thought the book is better than the film. The director deleted a lot and the story was not interesting he did . Sometime I felt boring. However, I felt shocked in the end . What for? Maybe I am a feminist.

I saw the film - the Da Vinci Code today. The film was not attractive. But I though many people would have shocked as it broke the tradition of faith in God. Why the people don’t want to believe the Jesus was a man but not a God? Why didn’t allow Jesus to get marry with a woman and then had a baby? I thought some people who believe the God, in their mind, they don’t trust a normal person would die for them. They only beleive God could do that.

I went to see the film with Ike. He also chose to believe the story even he is a Catholic. If the story were true, thus many people would have more freedom. The story raise women’s status. Women were not guilty. She could give a birth to baby for Jesus. It was a great mission, isn’t it ?

By the way, please be reminded that the couple, Jesus and Maria had a baby. It was very important that the baby was a girl. I thought if you were feminist, you would like this story very much.

I am not really like this film. I thought the book is better than the film. The director deleted a lot and the story was not interesting he did . Sometime I felt boring. However, I felt shocked in the end . What for? Maybe I am a feminist.

The key word in this story is –what would you want to trust?

Talk for Da Vince code

Just came back from a talk relating to Da Vinci Code and its film. The speaker named Chan Yu, who is a film critic from Hong Kong. He always has his point of view in watching movie , and regularly focuses on sexual relationship whenever he watches any movie.

Just as tonight ‘s talk, even it was referring to Da Vinci Code, he also could find the sexual problem . This was very interesting.

Mr.Chan said most of gays group who believed in Jesus were attacked by the Da Vinci Code. In the past, the gays believed Jesus was bachelorism and never had his family, Since the book occurred , the tradition have been broken. They are confused how to support their choice in sex.

I believe the theory of evolution so that I often to doubt the Jesus whether existed in the world. I always to ask somebody who trust religion why would you have faith in God. Most of time I was not satisfied the answers.

I haven’t finished read the Da Vinci Code yet ,and haven’t watch the film. So I am not clearly realize what Mr Chan said about the details. I will go to see the movie on Sunday . I am expecting to see it . Hopefully I could understand it after watching.

Self questions, self answers

Do you believe in love at first sight?

Never

Do you believe matrimony?

Maybe

Do you believe love?

Something.

Do you believe yourself?

in some cases

Do you believe religion?

Occasionally

Do you believe knowledge can be changed someone life?

Often

Do you believe friendship?

frequently

Do you believe man?

Seldom

Do you believe dream?

Absolutely

How do you know yourself?
Lover, friends, family, colleagues, books, films.

What do you want to do?
Film, study, writing, eating, talking, reading…

What would you most enjoy ?
Film, study, writing, reading….

What would you want to do in the rest of this year?
Study English

What do you want to do in future?
To withdraw from society.

Thought for Today

Today, me and MM ,Elaine went to Zhu Hai after work. We’d dinner at Yong Yong Curry Restaurant. It was a new one, decoration was better than old one. The food just ok, not made progress.

We talked a lot during the dinner, about friends ,what he/she has happened recently, also included love, work…

Every time we go out for dinner, at first, to reported what have been done newly. This is a nice way to keep friend relationship.

I spent a whole night outside. Therefore, I didn’t have enough time to read the fiction written by an American author John Cheever tonight. But I will try to finish one page before go to bed.

Today was a rainy weather. I sent an e-mail to Ike said it was depressed me. I don’t know why, emotion is hard to express just as hard to say why you suddenly love a man or woman.

Homoerotism Film

I’ve eventually finished the schedule of the coming screening in the Visual Cut Association. The theme will be the relationship between film and literature. It was so difficult to search the contents. In the end, I decided to choose some films that I really like. One of them is Farewell My Concubine(霸王別姬) made by a Chinese director, Chan Kai Ge. The actor in the film, Leslie Cheong, a HK film start passed away three years ago, is one of my favorites film actor. His suicide made me very upset. This film’s story is about homoerotism. I ‘m very interesting in this subject. Surely, this film wasn’t only this selling point. In my point of view, as long as the story is good, I would never care of the story whether homoerotism or normal relationship. We should open our mind to see anything.

Macau people

I was taken these pictures last Saturday for the photography class. The man was sitting on the little the chair who was selling the fruits. The old woman was collecting the abandon paper. Most of old women do this job. It can be made a little money for oldster to live. The other one I was taken from a old building. Why did I take it in this composition? I don’t know, cause I just wanted to try difference composition. Hope you like them.

New Grasses

I brought two grasses last week. One is for normal day, other is for sunny day. Their styles are so different. I like both. These pictures were taken by Mr.Chang. I think There are good mood in the pictures because of the poster “ In the mood for love”. Do you like it? I tell you I really like the movie.

I had a good time today

Now I’m listening to the film music of a Taiwan director Hsiao-hsien Hou. It is very comfortable and make me thinking of the films that I saw long time ago. I don’t why that it make me feel sad . Outside is raining. This kind of weather is better to stay at home. Just like now.

Today I did many things.In the morning, after I had breakfast, I searched some English information on the internet because I wanted to choose a nice school at Zhu Hai for me to learn English. It spent me three hours. In the afternoon, I went to Cut for the English Class between me and Ike.

That is my happy hour. I can talk English with Ike, especially we have the same topic – film. Besides, we also talk about what we like, what we do, what we think and what we want to do, as well as what we have been done before six days. I love the class very much. I’m expecting next time when the class is finished every time.

Today is special. Ike took me to his house. He showed me his favorite VCD. Some of them I ‘ve seen before, but still have a lot of films that I haven’t seen. Ike introduced his roommate and friends to me. They were very nice. Ike’s roommate also was an America guy, he had long hair with brown. He was so funny and he is conversant with Religion, such as Protestant,Buddhism, Confucius ,Zhuang Zi. I think he looked like the Jesus. Ike was agreed with me.

And the other America guy who was a very young handsome boy. He will be leaving Macau to Beijing with his beautiful girl friend who came from Malaysia. The boy wanted to be a actor in America but he didn’t want to study film in his country. Therefore, he will choose to study film in the Beijing Film Academy. I’m so jealousy of him. I wanted to study a film for four year but I didn’t have enough money.

Ann was Chinese,a strong girl who was born in Sweden. She will stay in Macau for four months for her summer course. She loves to play martial art very much. She had been Thailand for a period time to study the martial art before. After, she went to Beijing and then she came to Macau. One hand she studies her course, on the other hand, she will play the martial art. Ann can speak Cantonese but the tone was like a foreigner.

For farewell the lovers, Ike suggested that we went out for a dinner. Originally, he recommend to have hot-pop, at the end they changed to eat Italy food. The food was delicious. I had a great time tonight even I was not really know what they said. They were joking all the time It made me very happy. I hope that I would have chance to meet with the “Jesus” in the future.

I was thinking of Beijing constantly while we talking in their apartment .The scene I have seen it before. I remembered the time that I studied in Beijing Film Academy. That was a good time I never forget it. Ail’s tone made me thinking of Shing pooi . I haven’t given her a call for a long time. I will call her when I find out the address book.

I can do that

I don’t know why I always feel tired.
I do want to have some quota of sell-will as Ah Fa.
Even I am not young but I still have passion for overlying that I love.
We can not control others what they do but I can control myself.
We don’t know what other people do, so we have “to live carefully and attentively.”
I treat everyone with genuine. In some situation, I have to pretend for protecting myself. I never to do immoral things for power, money, materials…
I think one of the most important in life is how to live in satisfying.
I am often not satisfied with anything, such I cannot earn a lot of money, to possess a big house, to have an ideal job…
Actually, above just are not really what I want even if I always say that.
I am getting confused about my future. I love film but my job is absolutely unconcerned with it. That is the truth of Macau. We don’t have the marketing of film, if you want to have a good developing in this field, you must go to HK or China to seek a chance for yourself.
Once I want to stay in Beijing where has a big market for film-marker to achieve their film dream.
For your dream, you have to abandon your warm home, lover, friends, stable life…
And then to start afresh another life.
I chose to come back eventually because no bravely to accept the challenge.
I believe that I stay in Macau also can change my life throughout hard-working.
I promised myself I must to finish a short film in this year. I only have six months for me to achieve my promise. I ensure I can do that.

About Future

Today a young girl asked me what was the most important thing to me while I choose my major in the university. I said to her,” you must choose a major which is you are really want to study and most like. The girl only is sixteen years old who is a form six student in a famous middle school named ST Rose. She is confused by choosing her major. She told me certainly, the liberal arts are “rubbish”. Then I told you , I choose a “rubbish” major. Why did she think like this? She replied that Macau is a commercial society so that has to choose the relevant major. I asked her which major she want to study, the answer is account , because it can earn a lot of money.

The girl’s thought is very typical. Why do I say that? Since Macau opened the market of Casino, many hotels and casino have established in Macau. Many teenager stopped study and became casino-worker. Some of them are studding in school, they have to face the truth how to choose their future?

When I finished middle school, I didn’t have this problem. I knew what I want to do and what I can handle. My English teacher in the free talk class, she asked me the Chinese Communication whether can let me easy to find a job. I think to find a job is no problem but to find a good job is difficulty to some student if they don’t have very good professional skills.

I never regretting what I had chosen , but one thing I really feel regret, that is I didn’t study English very well in university. I missed the chance to improve English.

Keep going to learn English

I woke up at 8pm today. Today is the last day of the three holidays. I really wanted to stay in bed until noon but I had to leave home for extra work. I woke up early, therefore I had my breakfast in home. I ate a banner, an orange and some biscuits.
I left home at 8:30am on time. I arrived at UM about 9:00am .At first I went to REG to take the materials for the recruitment examination. I was a invigilator of the EXAM. When I arrived at the classroom, I checked the air-conditioner , mike and the examination paper.

The examination took 2 hours. The process was done smoothly. But had an accident during the EXAM. One student who shouldn’t appear in our room but he did. That was uncountable I thought. Why didn’t find the student came in a wrong room because of the same time a student was absence. Unfortunately, they had a same number so the wrong student had a seat to sit. When I found this problem, I called the REG to ask how to solve this situation. They said let him keep going. Then the only one big problem was solved.

After the examination, I went home and waited for Mr.Chang to go out for lunch. We had lunch at Lau-Kee where located in Tsing Zhou. The foods are quite good and the price are cheaper. Every time I go, must have many people there.

In the afternoon, as usual, I met with my English teacher, Ike. Today we were talking about a lot of topics. I tried to describe something that I really wanted to tell him. I hated me know such few words . I must to learn more new words. Ike taught me a slang—happy go lucky. How to use it ? When somebody ask you how is someone’s personality, if you think she/he is ok, then you can say she/he is happy go lucky.

I ‘m not really understand how to use it. I think it is difficult to learn the slang but I will try my best. Keep going to learn English.

Translation:All about Anna

All about Anna
Director: Jessica Nilsson
Chinese translated by :Ella

A friend once said that every women needs three men; One for adventure and fun, one for stimulating conversation and one for good sex.　Johan was all three.
朋友講過，女人一生需經歷三個男人;一個帶來冒險和樂趣，一個帶來刺激，一個帶來一段美好的性關係。約翰三樣齊全。
I’ve got one, I’ve got one!
我釣到一條，釣到一條。
It was too good to be true, of course.
真是太好了，當然。
Johan’s need for adventure pulled him off to the Arctic.
約翰要去北極探險
He was going to be away for three months.
他打算離開三個月
After a couple of months. I stopped receiving letters.
兩個月後，再沒有收過他的信。
That was five years ago.
這已是五年前的事
Eventually I tired crying over Johan.
終於，我不再為他流淚
I had learned my lesson.
我吸收教訓。
I was going to master my emotions. I was not a victim of love.
我嘗試控制我情緒，不做愛情犧牲品。
From now on, it was going to be all about fun.
由現在起，幹甚麼都只為了樂趣
From now on, I would be living lift to the hilt.
由現在起，我要活得有勁

It worked.
是可行的
Strangers without strings.

No commitment.
無承諾
No casualties.
無傷亡

Although one of them tagged-along: Frank.

Frank was sweet and steady. He took good care of me.
芬奇可愛又穩重。他照顧得我很好。
Hi Mum, it’s me. Frank. I have a very good friend staying with me.
媽，是我，芬奇。我和一個十分要好的朋友在一起。
She’s got a bad headache.
她頭痛。
What do I have to do about it?
我應該點做？
You know, a cure or something like that.
你知道，點樣可治癒。
A what? Aspirin? Ok.
甚麼？阿士匹靈？好的。
Hey!

The sex was good, the conversation find and , thanks God.
性生活很融洽，交流也很好，感謝主。
Frank didn’t have an adventure bone in his body.
芬奇身體裡沒有冒險的根子。
My guard dropped. And so when I got a new flat.
我的戒心去除。打後我租了一間公寓。
I was close to letting him move in.
我不允許他搬入來住。
Hi, darling.
甜心
Wait a minute. I just have to finish the upper part here.
等一會，我要漆完成上面部分。
I ‘m not really sure about this.
我不太肯定。
I think I’ll go with the white. Can you…?
我會跟白人去，你去嗎？
Anna? I was thinking about what if I… you know?
安娜？　我剛才在想如果，你明嗎？
Come on ,Frank.
來吧，芬奇。
This does look like diarrhoea.
這不像腹瀉
And now you do.
你來做。
Shit!
討厭。
Oh shit, it’s for me.
討厭，是我。
The first one to call my flat. I wonder who it could be.
這是第一位打電話給我的，
It’s Frank. Oh, hi Mun.
芬奇，是，媽。
Yes, sure.
當然。
Al right. Bye.
好，拜拜。

I thought we said twelve.
我講過是十二點。
Johan was back.
約翰回來。
Oh darling, see you. Gotta run.
甜心，再見，我要走了
A blast from the past.
過去情景瀝瀝在目。
What are you doing here? I thought I’d never see you again.
你在這裡做甚麼？我從來沒有見過你
Let’s just say. I’ve had my fill of adventure.
讓我講，我過去充滿冒險
Are you going to help me , or what?
你打算幫忙嗎？你想點？
Where do you want this?
你想放它在哪裡？
Oh, I don’t know.
隨便
I really didn’t expect you this early.
我無估計你這麼早返來。
Look like I’m a few years too late.
我遲了幾年
Was that the lucky guy?
這個幸運的傢伙？
Frank, he’s… he’s not…
芬奇，他是，　不
Stop flirting with the customer. We’re late.
不要再跟顧客調情，我會很遲到
My loss.
我好失敗
Gone as suddenly as he came.
他的出現就像他消失一樣迅速。
A mirage from my lost love life.
過去的愛像海市蜃樓
I figured I’d never see him again.
我以為不再見到他
I really tried to keep up the thing with Frank. But I had this feeling.
我努力維持跟芬奇的關係，但過去的思緒困惱我。
When I told him he couldn’t move in, to protect him as well as myself.　Right?
我不要他搬來跟我住，究竟是為了他抑或為了自己。
Putting up that ad was the beginning of the end.
登招租廣告台許是結束的開始
Hi, Anna. What are you doing?
安娜，　你在做甚麼？
I thought you said you needed to be alone.
你講過想一個人住。
50 people called, but I chose the one single woman who shared my views on love and
Commitment; Camilla.
有50個人打電話來，選了哈米拉，一個跟我有相同愛情觀的獨身女人。
Hello, darling! I know I haven’t moved in yet, but welcome to our housewarming! Surprise!
喂，甜心！雖然我還未搬入來，不過先來一個喬遷派對。驚喜！
Sorry to drag you away from your party.
唔好意思要你離開派對
That’s ok. It was actually starting to annoy me.
無問題，事實上派對令我有點苦腦
Look, I know this sounds a bit corny but…
我知道我有點唐突，但….
I don’t suppose this belongs to you, does it?
這隻鞋可能係會留底的
I found it in the back of the van.
我係貨車找到
Well then, let’s see if it fits.
試下係咪適合
So…

Would you like a beer?
飲啤酒嗎?
You’re missing the party.
你錯過派對了
Who’s this man?
這小子是誰

I know this is technically trespassing, but I felt bad about leaving last night.
Anna?昨晚離去我感到很不開心,安娜?
Are you making some coffee?
你在弄咖啡嗎?
Yeah… No, I’m about to have a shower.
是, 不,我正要沖涼
Why don’t you join me first?
點解不叫我一齊?
Fuck!
可恨的
See this?
看這裡?
Frank had no idea whose phone number he erased. He always meant well.
芬奇無心擦走電話號碼,他意思係好的。
Still, I used the incident as an excuse to break up with him.
但我以這次事件作為跟他分手的原因
I figured a clean cut was best for both of us.
我認為這對雙方都有好處
Can I talk with John , please?
我搵約翰,唔該
But you do! He moved my stuff just two days ago.
你兩日前才幫我搬過垃圾
Can I leave him a message?
可以幫我留口訊給他嗎?
Can you get me his phone number?
可不可以將他的電話給我
Bug I’m an old friend!
我們是好朋友
I’m gonna treat this poor single woman to a night on the town.

Here’s my dress. The one Carlos bought me in Rome.
我的新裙,加露士在羅馬買的
The one I told you about. The one with the little penis.
我向你提過，陰莖好細條那個
It doesn’t fit me in the boobs. They’re too swollen at the moment.
那個傻果不適合我，在適當的時候會變大
But it’ll fit you.
但適合你
Thank you, but I’m not in the mood.
多謝，我無心情
It’ll look great on you!
這會令你更靚
It’s a real guy-puller.
真正的寢邊男人
Do you know how many times I’ve been fucked in this dress?
你知道我在這條裙子上做了幾次愛？
Every time I go out: Whoa, someone’s there.
每次我出去，嘩，人就來
Champagne?
香賓？
I just need to get organised , ok?
我要執東西，別煩我
Whatever. I’m going out.
無論如何，我要出去
What about the washing up?
碗碟邊個洗？
This is not a hotel. You know ?
這裡不是酒店，你應知道
Carefull you don’t start sounding like my mother.
小心你的口吻，聽起來像極我的母親
I could have tried harder to find Johan.
我拼命去找約翰
But hey, he was the one who knew where I lived.
其實他知我住在哪裡
Obviously, this was just another adventure of his and I wasn’t crying over him again.
好明顯，他又開始另一次的冒險旅程，我不再為他
If it could be a bit more..

Good, hard, honest work can take your mind off anything.
投入工作可以你令忘記心情的不濟
I’d designed the costumes for a small play that was a huge success.
我剛幫一齣話劇設計戲服而獲得好評
One night, this French guy was visiting the theatre.
某夜，一名法國男子來到劇院
… at the end of Act 11 I fell down the stairs. Everyone was laughing.
在11場結尾我跌落樓梯。所有人都大笑
This is Pierre Gaultier.
他是派克．吉他
I am the top name at the Palais Royale.
在Palais Royale，我名字最響
This is Miss Olsen, who plays the captain’s first wife.
這是奧茜小姐，他演船長妻子
How lovely. It’s an honour to meet you.
多麼可愛，認識你是我的榮幸
And who is this lovely creature?
這位可人兒是誰？
This is Anna, our costume designer.
她是安娜，服裝設計師
Enchante.
真迷人
Nice to meet you, too.
高興認識你
Mr. Gaultier is artistic director at the Palais Royale.
吉他是Palais Royale的藝術指導
In Paris?
在巴黎？
Qui, my flower.
誰，我的花
Your work is magnifique. I want you to make costumes for our next play.
你做得很好，下一齣劇我想找你做服裝
Me, in Paris?
我，去巴黎？
Can you make big birds?
識做大鳥嗎？
I want feathers and wings and beaks.
我要有羽毛的翼和大嘴巴
That depends. Making flashy costumes just for show,　doesn’t really challenge me.
浮誇的設計適合舞台，對我無難度
A costume should be an extension of the character and show the audience who the
character is inside.
服裝可以令觀眾瞭解角色的內在
That’s what inspires me.
這就是令我著迷的地方
Perhaps if you told more about the play ?
可以講多少少有關這齣劇的故事嗎？
Take my card. I will meet you tomorrow to discuss the details.
我的名片，明天見面跟你詳談
I’ll call you then.
到時電你
Of course, the next day we had excelled reviews and I could find sponsors all over France.
當然，　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　在法國我可以找到贊助
Pierre’s offer wasn’t only a career move,　but an opportunity to do what was best for me.
派克提供的條件一般，但對我來講是一個很好的機會
A chance to get away from loud girlfriends and old lovers, who popped up when they felt like it.
也讓我有機會離開一下吵耳的同房和舊情人，他們鍾意就出現，唔鍾意就消失。
Why wouldn’t I say yes?
我點會唔應承
So, do you want the job?
你接這工作？
Yeah, please, I love birds.
是，我鍾意鳥

Oh , Albert. Do you want to suck?
噢，艾拔，想啜我嗎？
I am.
是
Oh, please.
來
“Oh, please”.
來吧
My very serious and very busy friend doesn’t want to be disturbed.
我這位既嚴肅又忙碌的朋友似乎不想到打擾
Maybe she can join us?
或者她可以加入我們
She’s working. Oh Albert, come on!
她在工作，艾拔，來
Do you want to take them off?
想脫鞋？
You’ve got the best buttocks.
你屁股好靚
Lick me.
舔我
I want you to suck me and lick me.
我想你啜我和舔我
Do I look sexy?
我性感嗎？
Do I look sexy now?
我現在性感？
I’m gonna to be two minutes. You’re gonna fuck me?
我出去兩分鐘，你想跟我操我嗎？
Do you promise?
你答應的
Absolutely.
求之不得
You won’t be asleep?
你不要睡著
No.
不會
Just a sec.
很快
Are there any condoms?
避孕套在哪裡？
Albert, help me. Help me.
艾拔，幫下我
Albert, I want the Tower of Pisa.
艾拔
Albert, I want it big. I want it big.
艾拔，我要它大點
Too much noise.
太嘈
Albert, for the first time… you’re
艾拔，首先，你
I wanna be fucked.
我想被你操
It’s a log.
阻住了
Oh , God.
噢，天啊
Oh Albert, I love you.
噢，艾拔，我愛你
Do it this way.
繼續這樣做

That’ll be nice. You can pick me up at the airport Charles de Gaulle
很好，你可以在Charles de Gaulle接我
Hey, Anna 。
你好，安娜。
I met this guy.
我見到這個男人
I look forward to work with you, too.
我也期待跟你一起工作
No, I talked with them yesterday.
不，我昨晚跟他們談過
Thank you.
多謝
Ok ,goodbye. Au revoir.
無問題，再見。
I met this handsome guy at the gym.
我在健身房遇到一位帥哥
So Albert is history now?
艾拔成為歷史？
No. but he needs a place to stay, so I said my flatmate was going away.
不，他需要地方去住，我跟他講，我同房快要離開
That’s fine by me, as long as you take care of it all.
好，只要你好好照顧間屋
Thank you , God!
多謝，天
This guy will make your mouth water!
這傢伙會令你滿口水
Tell Mr Mouthwatering that he can rent my room while I’m away.
告訴滿口水先生，他去巴黎期間他可以租住我間房
He can pick up the keys on Saturday.
叫他星期六來拿鎖匙
I love you
我愛你
If I ‘d known the true identity of this Mr Mouthwatering I ‘d never have said yes.
如果我早知道滿口水先生是誰，我一定不會答應
I know a trick.
這是騙局
What’s keeping him?

What if he can’t find it?

Relax.
放鬆
He’s smart and he’s gorgeous.

And you can count on him.
你不能指望他甚麼
Have a wonderful trip.
旅程愉快
Enjoy the spring, and not least the Parisian gentlemen.
享受春天，
Ok, I’ll try.
盡力而為
Ace!

It’s open!
門無鎖
I’m just about to leave for Paris.
我要去巴黎
I know.
我知
Camilla told me.
哈米拉講我知
I’m hear for the keys.
我來拿鎖匙
Keys?
鎖匙
Of course.
當然
I’m really confused.
我好混亂I’d better show you around.
Yeah.

Didn’t get much of a tour the last time.

That’s Camilla’s shelf, that’s yours.
那是哈米拉的，那是你的
You can make up a different system if you want, you and…Camilla.

Jesus, Johan!
約翰
What are you doing here?
你在這裡幹甚麼
You never called.
你一個電話也無打過俾我
I couldn’t stop thinking about you.
我無時無刻想著你
I lost your number. I tried to find it, but…
我唔見了你的電話，我盡力去搵，但
I don’t know what annoyed me most.
我不知道甚麼事是我感到最苦惱
Him appearing from nowhere.
他的出現總是突然而來
Again.
再次
Or him sharing my flat with Camilla.
他會和哈米拉分享我的屋
No! I can’t do this.
不，我不要這樣
You disappear for five years and now you want to move into my flat?
你失蹤五年，然後，你現在又想搬入我的屋
Yes…
是
NO. NO.
不，不
You can’t work on something like I did,look forward to something invest all your energy in something like I did, and then put it on hold because an old lover blames you for never calling.

On the other hand, this was the perfect test.
另一角度來看，這是最佳測試
If Mr Mouthwatering could live in my flat for three months without giving in to Miss Man-eater, then maybe I could trust him again. But his odds were low.
如果滿口水先生住在我家三個月而沒有跟男人殺小姐手發生關係，我或者會相信他，不過這機率很低
Ah Anna!
安娜
Welcome to Paris.
歡迎來到巴黎
And welcome to my theatre.
歡迎來到我的劇院
Did you have a pleasant flight?
飛行愉快嗎
Paris was just what I needed. A new beginning, a change of scene.
巴黎
I made friends with one of the actresses: Sophie.
我跟最好演員之一蘇菲成為朋友
Sophie was strong, self-assured and single by choice.
蘇菲個性硬朗有自信，很受單身人士歡迎
Exactly the person I needed to be around.
Did I miss life back in Copenhagen? Why would I ?

Can you please take off your sweater? Thanks.
可以除了線衫嗎？唔該
And raise your arm.
舉起你手臂
You have to do me now. The director needs me all day.
你必須先幫我做，導演我做整日
I have to finish here first.
我先要完成這裡的工作
It’s ok. I can come back later.
無問題，我遲些再來
Selfish bastard!
自私鬼
Cunt!
婊子
You costumes are just magnifique.

Thank you.
多謝
You can come a long way in France, with the right support.
你是令你老達來到法國
I feel I see who you are and what you need, you know?
我明白你和你的需要，你明嗎？
I’m not quite sure I do.
我不完全肯定
I could make you very successful.
我可以令你更成功
A very happy woman.
一個極快樂的女人
Thanks, but I’m doing fine.
謝謝，我滿意現狀
I think you should start trusting your feelings. Like we do in Paris.
你要相信自己感覺，像我們在巴黎一樣
What feelings?
甚麼感覺？
You don’t know who I m!
你不知道我是一個怎樣的人
You cunt! You loser…
Merde!


I thought we’d talked about you using my bathrobe.
不如傾下你用我浴衣的問題
I’d prefer it if you didn’t.

If you insist.
如果你繼續堅持
Sit down!
坐下
You can keep it on for now.
現在你可以繼續穿
Sit down, please.
坐下，求你
Sit down.
坐下
Champagne?
香賓
Whoa, baby!
嘩，寶貝
What are we celebrating?
慶祝甚麼
We’re celebrating that we’ve been living together for a month.
慶祝我們同屋共住一個月
Almost.
接近
Ok…
好
To being flatmates for a month.
快將一個月的同屋
Almost.
接近
Sit down, please.
坐下，
So, what are we having, then?
我們吃甚麼
Having?
吃甚麼
Dinner?
晚餐？
In the oven!
在焗爐裡
Did you like what you just saw?
我身材好看嗎？
Yes. You’re a very attractive woman.
是，你很迷人
But I think we should just keep it as flatmates.
我們只可以是住客關係
Having a good time doesn’t have to change anything.
享受過後，關係不會有任何改變
You have needs, and I have needs.
你有需要，我也有
What would be more sensible than to try and fulfil those needs in the comfort of our own home?
有甚麼比在自己屋裡更舒服
I don’t think this is gonna work.
不可以
Sit down
坐下
Turn off your brain… and relax
不要思考，放鬆
Camilla, I don’t…
哈米拉，不
Just relax.
盡量放鬆
Camilla…
哈米拉
Shhh!
殊

Sorry! Sorry.
對不起
I guess it’s time for a shower.
我需要沖個涼
Hi, Camilla, it’s me.
哈米拉，是我
Anna!
安娜
You sound so close. Are you back?
你的聲音很親切，你回來了嗎？
No, I’m way too busy here.
不，我很忙
Yeah, doing great.
做得好
I just wanted to check.
我想查下
Don’t worry about us.
不用擔心我們
We’re fine. Everything is fine.
我們相處很好，一切很好
What’s up? You sound strange.
甚麼事？你聲音怪怪的
I can’t talk now. He’s here.
我現在不能講，他在
Johan? In your room?
約翰，他在你房？
No.
不
Oh, good.
太好
So who’s there?
那麼，誰在你房
Are you still fooling around with Albert?
你仍跟那蠢蛋艾拔在一起？
No.
不
A new lover?
新男友
No.
不
And my other tenant?
我的另一租客
Is he seeing someone too?

I bet you’re building a little love nest.
我打睹你已建立一個小小愛巢
I mean, separately.
我意思係已分開
No. I don’t think he’s seeing anyone at the moment.
不，我認為他不會愛上其他人
I just really miss that bastard.
我錯過了
Johan?
約翰？
No, for Christ’s sake!Albert.
是艾拔
Oh, sweetie! Why don’t you sort things out with him?
噢，可愛的哈米拉，點解不揀他？
Because I think it’s too late. It’s never too late.
太遲了，永遠太遲
If you like him so much, why don’t you commit yourself?
若你真的很喜歡他，點解不跟他講明
You know, it’s probably just some sort of misunderstanding.
當中可能有誤會
Oh Camilla, now you got me going too. (crying)
哈米拉，你引得我也喊了
Hey… silly me.
我正一傻瓜

I can be such a wise-ass.
Didn’t I realize I was talking about myself?
Apparently not.
I needed one more push.
And that push came form an unexpected place.

May I come in?
我可以入來嗎？
Are you all right?
無事吧
Entrez. I’m almost done.
　　　　無乜事
Sure?
肯定
We used to be lover.
我們過去係情侶
Can you believe that?
你相信嗎？
You and Pierre?
你和派克
Yes, I know.
是，我知
I thought he was the love of my life.

Are we talking about the same person?
我們在講同一人
Yeah. Unfortunately.
很不幸
What happened?
發生甚麼事
L’amour rend aveugle.

What?
甚麼？
It means that when you’re in love, you’re blind.
即當你戀愛時，你會盲目
Ow!

Do you like life here, Anna?
安娜，喜歡巴黎的生活嗎？
Yes, Paris is a big break for me.
在巴黎，我可以休息一下
That’s not what I asked.
這不是我想知的答案
Show me your finger.
把手指遞給我
Don’t be afraid
不要怕.
Just when I think it’s over between us, he’s back in my face.

And I can’t say no.
我無法說不
I’ve got to stay out of that crap.

It’s gotta be fun, for Chris’ts sake.
很有趣，
Right?
是嗎
It’s gotta be fun, right?
很有趣，
Fun’s ok.
確實很有趣
Maybe fun’s not enough anymore.
但有趣是不夠的
You’re a romantic!
你是浪漫主義
So that’s why!I’ve met romantics before.
　　　　　　我之前有過一段很浪漫的愛
She’s got to be special.
她一定很特別
She is.
她是
So there is someone.

I knew it.
我知道
Who is she?
她是誰？
You know her.
你認識的
I know her?
我識她？
Oh, my God! It’s Anna.
噢，天，是安娜
Did all that happen when you came to get the keys?
你來拿鎖匙時定發生過甚麼事？
No.
沒有
We go back a long time.

我回去一段長時間

I fucked it up.
And ?
接著
It’s getting too complicated.
情況好複雜
I’ve decided to move out.
我決定搬出去
Don’t worry, I’ll cover you for the rent.
不用擔心，我會繼續支付租金
But that’s unfair.
這不公平
I didn’t know about you and Anna.
我不知道你和安娜之間的事
You’re not to blame.
你不要太自責
Can I stay here tonight?
我可不可以在這裡睡
I can’t sleep if I have to be alone.
我一個人睡不著
No hanky-panky. Scout’s honour!

I have to go, Sophie.
我必須要走了，蘇菲
Sophie’s sweet caress showed me I had to break the vicious circle.

If not, Johan and I would end up like Pierre and Sophie. Lonely, bitter,　spitting harsh words at each other.
否則，我和約翰會像派克跟蘇菲一樣的結果。寂寞、痛苦、互相指責

I understand.
我好明白
Forever seeking comfort in strangers.
永遠在陌生人懷中找慰藉

So much for wanting to break the vicious circle.
很想避免惡性循環的出現

If Camilla was a trap, he’d walked right into it.
假如卡米拉在一個圈套，他也願意掉進去
Told you his odds were low.
他的可能性好低
I was never, ever going to expose myself like this again.
以後我都不會讓自己這樣做

Anna sobbing
安娜濕透
Are you ok?
你沒事吧？
Come on. It’s ok.
來，無問題
I was too drunk to worry about it. But really.
我飲醉了，但事實上
What were the odds I’d be scooped up by that other removal guy?

I couldn’t take a step without being reminded of Johan.

So, what’s up?
那又如何？

Yeah, what’s up?

Well, let me think.　
讓我想想。
Just screw the brain out of me.

So, you really moved my stuff?
你想搬走我的垃圾
Yeah, two hours or something.
兩小時左右
I just need to move this piano
我要搬鋼琴
See you , honey.
拜拜，甜心
Yeah? Yes…
喂
Yeah. Ok.
好的
What are you doing?
你想點？
Hey, ok.
沒事
You’re sick. Sick!
你有病
Hey, sorry, ok?
唏，對不起，有無事？

I know this is awkward, but I’m just back from Paris and I just thought…
我知好傻，但好剛從巴黎返來，我只想
Can I come in?
我可以入來嗎？
No, this is a bad idea.
不，這注意不好
I really feel bad.
我感覺很差
You were so good to me, and I just didn’t …
你很好，我剛才沒有
I know I’ve completely screwed up, but if you’ll forgive me…
我完全醉了，如果你原諒我
Anna, please don’t!
安娜，不要這樣

I don’t blame you for not daring.
我不會責罵你
I probably wasn’t right for you.
我可能做了一些對你不公正的事
Daring? What are you talking about?
　　　　你說甚麼？
If a guy showers you with eternal love, suddenly you’re suffocating.

If he doesn’t, it’s what you want, isn’t it?

You’re so scared of losing, you never invest yourself in anything.
你怕失去，你不願意付出自己
Well, except your damn work, of course.
當然，除了你可恨的工作
I just wanted to…
我只想

Anna, please. Just tell him what he means to you, or you’ll spend the rest of your life thinking love hurts.
安娜，請告訴他，他對你有多重要，否則你的下半生會有所憾
But… how do you know?
你怎知道？
Good night, Anna.
晚安，安娜
And good luck.
祝你好運
What if Camilla and Johan had already planned their future?
如果卡米拉和約翰已經計劃好他們的將來，怎麼辦？
What if she’d love to have babies and he said he’d never leave her?
如果她想要孩子，而他說永不離開她？
In my flat!

Frank was right.
芬奇說得對
I had to conquer my fear of defeat.
我必須戰勝失敗的死懼
I had to risk the pain.
戰勝痛苦
I had to go back into that flat.
我要返回公寓
Johan?
約翰
Johan, I have to talk to you.
約翰，我要跟你說
You see any fucking Johan in here?
哪裡有約翰在？
Anna!Christ!
安娜，天啊
What happened?
發生何事
Oh, my God, Anna…
天啊，安娜
Had I just blown all chances of ever seeing him again?
難道我再無機會見他？
Apparently, Johan had left the flat to go to some boat.
好明顯，約翰已離開公寓上了船
Of course! The boat!
當然，一定上了船
His ticket to adventure.

We decided to put the last five years behind us. From now on, it was going to be all about us．
我們決定將過往五年拋諸腦後。由現在起，只得我們倆。