I can do that

I don’t know why I always feel tired.
I do want to have some quota of sell-will as Ah Fa.
Even I am not young but I still have passion for overlying that I love.
We can not control others what they do but I can control myself.
We don’t know what other people do, so we have “to live carefully and attentively.”
I treat everyone with genuine. In some situation, I have to pretend for protecting myself. I never to do immoral things for power, money, materials…
I think one of the most important in life is how to live in satisfying.
I am often not satisfied with anything, such I cannot earn a lot of money, to possess a big house, to have an ideal job…
Actually, above just are not really what I want even if I always say that.
I am getting confused about my future. I love film but my job is absolutely unconcerned with it. That is the truth of Macau. We don’t have the marketing of film, if you want to have a good developing in this field, you must go to HK or China to seek a chance for yourself.
Once I want to stay in Beijing where has a big market for film-marker to achieve their film dream.
For your dream, you have to abandon your warm home, lover, friends, stable life…
And then to start afresh another life.
I chose to come back eventually because no bravely to accept the challenge.
I believe that I stay in Macau also can change my life throughout hard-working.
I promised myself I must to finish a short film in this year. I only have six months for me to achieve my promise. I ensure I can do that.