BIG LIBERATION

Just finish my Annual Report and sent to my boss RIGHT NOW. Big LIBERATION!
I haven’t written English essay for this blog for long long time. I have no excuse to forgive me indeed.

Let me report what happened tome these days:

Ike have came back to USA last week. I invited him to dinner in the Macau tour. I ordered all dished that were his favorite food, but he ate not much. I thought that was his style – ate a little bit but fat. I always talked with him about my opinions about that, thus , I was very surprised while I said the same common to Island about him even using Cantonese, he would understood me actually. I believe his Cantonese was not so bad.

Last Friday, I missed our tea gathering as I had to struggle for my annual report at office. President Tea, I am so sorry to you. I promise, I will come this Friday early.
I went to see an old, small house with a balance(天台) today. We are considering whether buy it or not. Mr Chang liked the balance, however, I didn’t like the aisle because it was very dark. Besides, I also didn’t like those people placing a lot of stuff on the aisle and hung on many clothes in front of the balance. It was intolerable!

I am not sure if I should buy it as the price is not in a legal price even the owner is my friend. But then I like the location. If I buy it, I could go to middle area by walking quickly , and no need to drive my motorcycle to class or shopping in the weekend or holiday.That would be great!

On the other hand, we really want to have a balance as our back garder(後花園).
Let me think a moment calmly. Tell you next time what’s our result.

My short movies in You Tube

There are thousands of billion people uploading their short or long movie to You Tube. I have watched a lot of them on the internet. Today, suddenly, I wanted to produce a short movie of mine. Just practice, hope you like it.



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PfJfR9Sf9PY


In 2005, I directed a short movie about a girl who was waiting for her future. All of the actors in the movie were my best friends. We were really enjoyed the moment.
Here is the movie and its making of . Hope you enjoy it as us.

Island is waiting for



Making of Island is waiting for

年終審判 & Happy New Year 2007

I know here is an English blog, but I want to write this article in Chinese. Hope you understand me . If I have time, I will translate it as practice later. Wish you a happy 2007!

可能是最近缺乏澱粉質的關係，心情認真麻麻。連最愛的電影也沒有看，次愛的英文也懶得寫（因此不得不用中文在此向大家宣佈我還活著 Let me to say in English – I am still alive !）

轉眼一年，人人都會老例講下他或她過去一年發生乜事，又或者對未來一年又會有乜鴻圖大計。

06年我過得實在混帳，除了上班就是上堂，總結僅可以一字概之──忙！幸運的是在這一年裡認識到兩位好朋友──伊克和里森，他們愛稱自己為黑白無常，一黑一白，實在相映成趣。

常人皆說，人大了就很難再找到朋友，大家不妨心算一下，過去一年自己認識了多少人，當中又有多少人能夠成為你的朋友？朋友的定義當然非just say hi 那種，而是真真正正的朋友。而不只是總結自己往年掘了多少金，升了幾次職，買了幾幢樓，吃了幾頓飯，行了幾次街，打了幾鋪牙校，搏了幾場殺，等等。或許在這一年，我或許過份重視了某些事或人，而因此又忽略了某些事或人，畢竟時間有限，加上自己又不屬於那些善於管理時間和自己的人，因此只能做到顧此失彼，望各方好友見諒。

我覺得06最值得我回憶，就是每星期五晚在板樟堂某大廈的兩房一廳的不大的空間裡，悠閒地坐在地上，聞著滿室的茶香，閒話英語的醉人時光（因為里森或教授的濃茶可醉人啊）。說累了，就蜷縮在窄窄的沙發裡，然後在abcdefg的英語聲中發夢，間中被黑白無常召回人間，胡亂回應一兩句說了自己也會臉紅的Ella式英語，然後又再找周公重續好夢。

07年，誰也不知道每週一聚的快樂日子還會延續多久，可以預知的，是伊克快要離開我們返回麥當奴的老家，重過他的老美日子──照舊啃住麥當當，攬住大肚Dum。(You would understand if you were Cantonese，哈哈)。他呆在澳門已一年多，也學了漢語一段日子，我敢猜他絶對不會明白我在說他，除非他的同屋告密。

06定下的計劃，沒有多少可以實踐到，因自己實在太隨心也太隨意，往往就是無定向風，很唯心主義（mentalism）。我在想，如果真的可以做到享受活在當下，又的確不錯，但偏偏腦袋不生性，離經叛道，想入非非，終弄得思前顧後，煩惱自尋。

因此，07我不會有甚麼大計，決定吃一會腦輕鬆，放縱一下自己，不再定甚麼宏願，否則到頭來又發覺自己甚麼也沒有做過，枉自傷心，倒不如讓計劃在每日每時每分每秒在實踐中，很可能到年尾的時候，會有大驚喜。

信不信由你。

Something for 2006

At the end of 2005, grandfather left the world without saying a word to me.
At the beginning of 2006, Lover was taken away the annoying stick in his back.
Afterward, 2005 is about become the mark of history.
I think the year would be past by quietly
However, happy days will not last long.
At the end of 2006, one unhappy thing happened to me again.
The life is still life….. but lacked of something.
As I may know , no one can be perfect , no moon can be full all the time.
You couldn’t know what will happen next minute in your life.
We always hope that everything run smoothly , but the truth is opposite for ever.
I believe no one can beat you except yourself.
Once you feel cold , please run away from the iron house as far as you can.
Don’t stay in the same place where can’t give you any support.
Saying yourself in anyway!

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

These days I am in a bad mode that’s why I have been stopped writing for a long time.
Everyone can’t control those things that you don’t want to be happened. You may treat it as a challenge or not, but It always influence your emotion and schedule of life.
If you hate someone but you have to help him/her, what and how would you do? I don’t know, I am so suffering for it. Anyway, I will stand up again!

I will out of town tomorrow for two or three days. Let me send my best wish to every friend of mine – Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! All of your dreams will come true! ( I really like it!)

Corruption!

The century corruption was happening in Macau. However, one of Malfeasants was arrested; most of people still are thinking that kind of human is being here.
This is MACAU, we are in CHINA.

No one allow that corrupt issue to be happened again. But how to avoid it? One cold day does not make the river freeze three feet thick. I am thinking what is the best way to kick out the dead apple.

Our society has so many bad habits that we have to face . Something we want to change something, but we are absolutely lack of spunk even as our director.

Most of people just want to grasp money and repute, can you imagine that situation even you are rich but you are standing in a hell all the time.Today I read a news from HK newspaper , there are over 70% HK people just think how could they earn more and more money in their life. Apart from money, no more! How about Macau people, if you know it please let me know.

I always think of what is the most important thing to one’s life. In the past, I would say- dream , but right now, I have been changed to – choice .

Choice means that you are in a good condition—you have choice to give up or go on.
That is very lucky to us. Having choice is a happy thing. .It is better that you still have choice to do something. As you know , there are many people have been lost their choice.

I don’t know below article whether could express what I think or not, anyway, hope you can understand me.

I couldn’t down

Yesterday, after English class , I went back home as soon as I can, as I felt uncomfortable. I thought I must supper hungry. My dinner just a little bag things that I even didn’t know what it was. The woman said that was made by fibre.

I was afraid that I would die for hungry. I also felt cold, I believed I was ill. Oh! My haven, I didn’t want sick. I hated it. I have so many job to do. I couldn’t down.
Just the first day, I told myself I had to forbear it, otherwise, I would get half the results with double the effort.

Long-tongue

I read a new about woman :

For centuries men have joked that women talk a lot. Now a new book claims that this is true. Dr Luan Brizendine writes in her new book The Female Mind that women talk almost three times as much as men. Women usually speak an average of 20,000 words a day, whereas men average 7,000 words a day.

Are you a talker? I think woman ‘s tongue is longer than man, indeed. I also belongs the long-tongue group. But sometime I hate to talk with those people that I don’t talk to.

In fact, I love thinking instead of speaking. You would find out more interesting and imagination once you are thinking.

But we have to communicate with others, that’s why we have to extend our tongue although we don’t like to do that.

Am I willing to pay out for others?

My friend said to me yesterday “You are so selfish because you only find your friend whenever you need them. I was not accept her critics although, sometime, I am ,indeed.

In the past , I always stayed with my friends. Since six months ago, I had to change my custom because I had too many things to do, such as had to work, study English, ready books , watch movies, take pictures, etc. But she said that all above were my excuses. I only enjoyed doing what I like, is that wrong?

I believe that life is choice (learned from last night’s drama “three friends” directed by big bird. And live is chaining continually. I have been changing. Actually, that is my natural character – doing for myself.

If we are friend, we wouldn’t to account how much do you pay out for each other. I would never expect to get reward from someone. Before you want someone to pay out for you, you should ask yourself first “ Am I willing to pay out for others?

國金外望

I bought a book”國金外望”from the lately exhibition of book yesterday. That is I first time to see the author’s article. He/her style was really funny—even if the topic was serious that he/she mentioned.
In the articles, the author used an ironical, facetious style to describe you would see the dark, ugly of the stocks market.(Harrison, actually, I wanted to see 股票市場醜惡的一面, is that right? )
It is a short book, which only has 156 pages. I’ve almost finished it. You can guess it must be a nice book so that I couldn’t wait to finish it.

Weekend Trip

Weekend Trip
I made a new look for my hair. It looks like a big fish egg. (It is a flash escription?haha).
Last weekend I went to 小纜( I foget how to Pinyin).. The organization was very bad. I didn’t think I took even a good picture. But, I ate a lot of good food, stayed a night in a nice hotel.
Unimaginable,小纜’s food is very very nice especially小纜炸鯪魚球、生煎包、millet juice粟米汁 (How say in English, is it hard to translate, isn’t it?)
Wow, I think I attended a luxury tour although I only pay HK$450.
In despite of the good food, good hotel, I would never join this kind of trip again. You know I just want to take picture not for food .see?

I will post several pictures here later. 很期待吧?

A book about “tourist guide” in Japan

Hi friends,
I am reading an interesting book named 歌舞伎町案內人so that I can’t write every day. I am so absorbed in reading it . It was written by a Chinese man who is working as a “tourist guide”(Actually, in Chinese , this job should be called 拉皮條, I don’t know how to translate it , sorry) in Japan red-green lamp area (紅燈區). He stands at street to introduce sex places (性場所-hard to find this term. Harrison, Pls help to translate. Thanks) to tourist. I believe he is a good person although he has to face different people such as back and white. I admire his effort on his job and study , and he never to say give up even he has to face so many unhappy things. Moreover,
He was insisted to study fashion design even thought he had to work every day (from 7:00pm to 2:00am) . On the other hand, the reason why I read his book, because ... he is a handsome guy. Hahaha. Actually, he is not my cup of tea, he just belong that kind of milk-cream guy (how say 奶油小生). not muscle man. But I think he is attractive to many women.

I have to stop writting cause I need to read it again. Tell my what I think of it next time.

Add insult in injury

Last night I tried to translate three sentences, I found I knew all the word but at the end I couldn’t fully understand the meaning of them.
I was so disappointed. Translation is so beautiful. I wonder if I could take full course to improve my English skills.

Just now , I learned two saying from English Chat room: Add insult in injury( 傷口上灑鹽 或直譯受傷後再受到侮辱) .Bad things come into tows(禍不單行)

That ‘s why I love to remember the saying or idiom, I believe they are very useful when you want to tell someone something using compact sentence.

The saying: Add insult in injury is very popular using between people. Most people like to do that. They hate to see happy thinks come into someone even their friends.
It is very strange they would do that. I can’t imagine that happen to me. As I wrote a short article in Chinese last night , I am a simple girl. I never wan to do something to heart someone, however, I involuntary heart someone.


PS: These days, I am very busy so I don’t have enough time to study English. I feel ants in my pants. You know, we don’t have too much time; I don’t want to waste my time doing useless things. But, somehow, we must to do trashy things.

Anyway, friends, please enjoy every minute in you life!

One should have ideals

I heard my friend has fired her boss and then went back to Beijing. Wahhhhhhhhhh! So great!

She was study screenplay in Beijing . She shouldn’t has worked for administration, although it was related to film. But admin is admin, she couldn’t has enough time to write her script, even she hadn’t time to see one movie. Working 14hours a day, so crazy! Haha, actually, so am I , something.

Busy makes one crazy! If you don’t enjoy your job, don’t do that. It would waste your life.

I believe she will write a good play and get award someday as long as she works hard.
“An ideal is a kind of power ” 理想就是動力　──　Romane Rolland　

One should have ideals. Without ideals, there will be no good wishes or glorious reality. The life of a person who has an ideal is always hot.

Nihilist

Listening to the sound track of Kieslowsk’s film “Red” , the Music makes me feel quite and vacant (空靈的). I like this kind of feeling.

Today is the end of three days holiday. I had nothing to do except written several articles for my job. I don’t want to do that at home, but I don’t think I will have enough time to finish that in the coming week, indeed.

I also wasn’t learning English in the past two days. I am feeling guilty about it.
Feeling tired and tired , and it made me couldn’t do everything.
I can’t believe I have to go back to work tomorrow. So fast it passed.

Cai Yuanpei once said “ The value of life is measured by the career and not by a long life “ (人生的價值，在於事業不在於生命的長久)

But Sartre once said: “ As a person, everyone has the same value.”（對人而言，任何事物都有它的價值）

I believe Sartre’s saying. So I believe everyone has his/her value. Once you want to do something, just to do that without any doubt. Is it right? ( I think Harrison would ask me what’s that? I really hard to say what is it? It is clear that everyone has his/her idea. I don’t need to say it clearly)

Actually, I belong to that kind of person –nihilist.

My room is full of “Red”. I am thinking of the story. The actress’s eyes, the red color, the life, the fate, the chance, and the old woman who occurred in the series of “three colors”.

If you have been seen Kieslowsk’s film, you would know what I mentioned. And Also would know Why I mentioned Sartre and nihilism.

Kieslowsk’s was a nihilist

Follow my heart

Once I think everyone only has one time being here, I strongly want to have some changes for my life. I don’t just speak, speak and then do nothing. So, I will remember what I feel and what I want. I am those people who follow up their heart.

One single slip brings eternal regret, and looking back, you find that your whole life has passed away. (一失足成千古恨，回頭已是百年身)

I don’t want regret for my life. I must to do something that is meaningful to me and worth to do.

What things you would do until you die?

Sorry, friends, I am so busy these days, therefore, I haven’t updated here for a long time. Have nothing special things happened to me also. I just feel tire, tire and tire. I tired like a dead dog. Nothing to think, nothing to consider, even nothing to dream. Oh, so terrible this situation. I hope that it could be done apace.

I always think of it – we should put career in the first place in life or just should put dream in the first place in life. On Japanese man had said-For human being, the best career to undertake is to do what lasts eternally, which is also what life requires human beings as a whole. 人,最理想的的是做你最能持之以恆的事業，這亦是生命對人類的要求。

What things you would do until you die? My answers are ( I hope so)—writing(Chinese and English), shooting film, taking picture, no more at this moment. You know I always change my mind.

Everyone is responsible for his job

Today, I will have lots of things to be done. We are doing so much preparation for tomorrow event. I hope it will be done smoothly.

These days are busy to do something for myself. I couldn’t off work on time everyday, because something always out of control.
I am expecting my long vocation. But where they are ? Who knows.
A Chinese saying says: Everyone is responsible for his country. (天下興亡,匹夫有責).
I would like to change it to: Everyone is responsible for his job. (工作好壞，自負盈虧)．

Haha….Do you agree ?

PS: by the way , I am reading a book named English-Chinese and Chinese-English Translation: Practice and Research. written by Lin Wei. This is a really nice book.
If you are interesting in translation, you should buy one. I bought it in China , just coasted 50 yuan, is it very cheap? I agree.

2006.10.19 morning

Struggle is life

The important day to our university is coming in two days. My colleagues are crazing for it. Everything changes at any moment. How to prepare perfectly? It is a big knowledge.

In the past, I was in charge of several events for film. The preparation job were so difficulty and trouble. You had to consider anything. In other words, you not only have a clear brain and also good organizing , management as well as strength.

Some people are grouped to do something is a good feeling, something like film worker doing for a film. I like this kind of job. It is very exciting, but also very hard.

Today let me to use a sentence to encourage our lovely colleagues:

Struggle is life, and life is only advancement. –Ba Jin

2006.10.18 早

Money, I have none; my life ,at your disposal

The section 2 of translation course has been changed to another teacher. I learned several interesting sentences from him. Here they are:
Money, I have none; my life ,at your disposal. 錢，我沒有，命就一條！
My good luck attend you. 好運與你同在
Long live the People's Republic of China中華人民共和國萬歲
The child as he was, Jane was more then a match for him. 這小孩盡管頑皮，但壓根不是珍的對手
Not a finger did I lay on him.從沒有指責過他

The teacher spoke and changed the screen of powerpoint very fast so that I couldn’t write down all of the notes. When I get the full notes from him, I will introduce the others to you.